I'm not ready to make nice
I so don't live in the moment most of the time, I miss the past to much, I fear the future to much and I spend to much of my time thinking about that.
I realized yesterday that I've spent a good part of the last 3 summers crying becasue I was going to have to say goodbye to everyone at the end, that means theres a good part of those last 3 summers that I missed out on.
Not that I would change anything about them.
I feel like my heart is being ripped out every time he talks about leaving, I don't know, its just really hard for me, but I have yet to cry and though the tears will come eventually, I've decided to do my best to just live the rest of the summer in the moment. I have 26 days left and that would be a lot to miss out on.
I realized yesterday that I've spent a good part of the last 3 summers crying becasue I was going to have to say goodbye to everyone at the end, that means theres a good part of those last 3 summers that I missed out on.
Not that I would change anything about them.
I feel like my heart is being ripped out every time he talks about leaving, I don't know, its just really hard for me, but I have yet to cry and though the tears will come eventually, I've decided to do my best to just live the rest of the summer in the moment. I have 26 days left and that would be a lot to miss out on.