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i can't tell if slept for six hours last night, or two. i can't tell the difference between sleeping and awake when i am lying in the dark, in my bed, praying that i will fall asleep because i am so tired and do not want to be awake anymore, with these thoughts pounding the inside of my brain. once i finally get to sleep, i can't stay asleep and i wake up all over the place. my head is killing me by the time the sky gets light. i feel sick and this morning i stared at my reflection for five minutes when i got up thinking how did this happen. i look like i've been shooting drugs into my veins all night, my skin is paler than usual and my eyes are swallowed into the dark circles that weren't left by fists. but really, it's just that i can't sleep anymore and i look and feel awful.
in other news it's like i am a child again cause all i'm listening to is dylan, like in my parent's first house when i was growing up.
in other news it's like i am a child again cause all i'm listening to is dylan, like in my parent's first house when i was growing up.