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i went home to my parents this weekend.....
friday: i worked then went with holly to chipolte for dinner then i went home and slept
saturday: went to work then got one the metra back to orland....took a nap then went to get jason and his bro...we ran a couple of errands then dropped josh of at home and jason and i went to the noodles and co for dinner....now see the point of the two of us to go to dinner was so i could talk to him about whats been going through my head latley...the whole why was i never good enough to be your girlfriend....i mean we dated but we were never boyfriend girlfriend....and the fact that i feel that the friendship is only one way.... like i think about this fucker all the time...and if i see something that i think that he'll like ill pick it up for him....but yet this is never reciprocated....and i mean he doesnt have to buy me anything....i dont need shit like that....but i guess i just feel that hes not there for me....like if i had a problem i dont feel like i can go to him with it....which isnt fair because he knows full well the he can confide in me...and has....i just i dunno it just seems that he gets all the benefits of the relationship and i dont find that fair...and the thing is i dont even know if i truly like him anymore...or if its more just me holding on to him cuz even though i dont get the attention that i want from him i still get something which is better than the nothing i would be getting without him....all my friends claim that i deserve better...and maybe that is the case but im not so sure....its just emotionally draining for me...and i dont know how much more of this i can take....i mean its hard being friends with him....but i know if i were to tell him that i didnt want to be friends anymore it would hurt his feelings....and i dont want to do that...because i care about him....and maybe i shouldnt take his feelings into consideration at all but i do.....anyway after dinner we picked up my lil bro and his lil bro and took them to see national treasure which we all thought was really good....and while we're at the theater i went to order a milkshake i order a mint chocolate shake and the guy tells me they dont have mint choc. so i ask well then what is it that you have down there? and the girl that was going to make my shake laughs at me and says some people are so ignorant...i was shocked that she said that and so we went to the case to look and he goes oh well that sign must be wrong...and i go well can i have whatever that is as a shake? so the girl makes my shake and hands it to me all dripping and ice cream running down the side and i ask for a napkin to wipe it off and she gives me an attitude....AND ontop of all that IT WAS FUCKING MINT CHOCOLATE....fucking bitches.. needless to say i said something to the manager of the theater because she had no right to treat me the way she did....
sunday: i took jason's little sister to see spongebob for her birthday....then dropped her off and sat with jason for a bit and then went home....
today: went to my corrections class....im not going to poly sci....i didnt do my paper...but i emailed my professor...so itll be ok...after i finish this im headed home...im supposed to be going to see this guys' cats that i might adopt....then possibly taking a trip to the thrift store cuz i havent been there in fucking forever...and im going through withdrawls!!!!
peaceout thriftsters
friday: i worked then went with holly to chipolte for dinner then i went home and slept
saturday: went to work then got one the metra back to orland....took a nap then went to get jason and his bro...we ran a couple of errands then dropped josh of at home and jason and i went to the noodles and co for dinner....now see the point of the two of us to go to dinner was so i could talk to him about whats been going through my head latley...the whole why was i never good enough to be your girlfriend....i mean we dated but we were never boyfriend girlfriend....and the fact that i feel that the friendship is only one way.... like i think about this fucker all the time...and if i see something that i think that he'll like ill pick it up for him....but yet this is never reciprocated....and i mean he doesnt have to buy me anything....i dont need shit like that....but i guess i just feel that hes not there for me....like if i had a problem i dont feel like i can go to him with it....which isnt fair because he knows full well the he can confide in me...and has....i just i dunno it just seems that he gets all the benefits of the relationship and i dont find that fair...and the thing is i dont even know if i truly like him anymore...or if its more just me holding on to him cuz even though i dont get the attention that i want from him i still get something which is better than the nothing i would be getting without him....all my friends claim that i deserve better...and maybe that is the case but im not so sure....its just emotionally draining for me...and i dont know how much more of this i can take....i mean its hard being friends with him....but i know if i were to tell him that i didnt want to be friends anymore it would hurt his feelings....and i dont want to do that...because i care about him....and maybe i shouldnt take his feelings into consideration at all but i do.....anyway after dinner we picked up my lil bro and his lil bro and took them to see national treasure which we all thought was really good....and while we're at the theater i went to order a milkshake i order a mint chocolate shake and the guy tells me they dont have mint choc. so i ask well then what is it that you have down there? and the girl that was going to make my shake laughs at me and says some people are so ignorant...i was shocked that she said that and so we went to the case to look and he goes oh well that sign must be wrong...and i go well can i have whatever that is as a shake? so the girl makes my shake and hands it to me all dripping and ice cream running down the side and i ask for a napkin to wipe it off and she gives me an attitude....AND ontop of all that IT WAS FUCKING MINT CHOCOLATE....fucking bitches.. needless to say i said something to the manager of the theater because she had no right to treat me the way she did....
sunday: i took jason's little sister to see spongebob for her birthday....then dropped her off and sat with jason for a bit and then went home....
today: went to my corrections class....im not going to poly sci....i didnt do my paper...but i emailed my professor...so itll be ok...after i finish this im headed home...im supposed to be going to see this guys' cats that i might adopt....then possibly taking a trip to the thrift store cuz i havent been there in fucking forever...and im going through withdrawls!!!!
peaceout thriftsters