ayiyi
got an email from my mom....
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I don't know if you know or not, but Ryan left Houston and he is gone to get his stuff from Santa Barbara then he is moving to chicago, to stay with a friend and get a job. I believe he had a huge fight with Hasnah. He has been writing and he is hurting a lot inside. I have been in touch with your dad about this too. ` no doubt after being abused by our step mother most his life and my dad just letting it happen he`s bound to be burning with anger. He told my mother he even wants to change his last name because he`s done with my father...yet is still using his card and money. I have a lot of mixed feelings but in the end I love him, Im worried and I hate that our step mom ruined him and to this day will not admit what she did was child abuse, intsead blames on ryan just being born `bad` she even had the nerve to tell him even mom wouldnt want him....all I could do is send an email telling him I love him. All I want to do is shower him with love. But Im also, ryan is used to money and the way he knows how to get money is not at all `good`...ryan has no college degree and doesnt want to work I worry about things like drug dealing in his near future but I also want to think that maybe this is his chance to learn how to be on his own. In any case I will try to show him how much I love him and Im there for him.
Another strange info from my mom and why she didnt want to continue the therapy sessions with Ana even though I liked her. Apparently once my mother found out about my situation last summer she told Ana everything and ana never responded to her and to me she just told me that apparently she heard there is a crisis we need to talk about and it made my mother angry. Im confused because I dont quite fault Ana, perhaps she did what she seemed professional. My mother has a habit of butting into my therapy sessions and about what she thinks we should be talking about without my permission so maybe she felt by responding she was breaking some boundaries? I dont know. But to my mom she took at as Ana didnt bother to help me out of a urgent situation...
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I don't know if you know or not, but Ryan left Houston and he is gone to get his stuff from Santa Barbara then he is moving to chicago, to stay with a friend and get a job. I believe he had a huge fight with Hasnah. He has been writing and he is hurting a lot inside. I have been in touch with your dad about this too. ` no doubt after being abused by our step mother most his life and my dad just letting it happen he`s bound to be burning with anger. He told my mother he even wants to change his last name because he`s done with my father...yet is still using his card and money. I have a lot of mixed feelings but in the end I love him, Im worried and I hate that our step mom ruined him and to this day will not admit what she did was child abuse, intsead blames on ryan just being born `bad` she even had the nerve to tell him even mom wouldnt want him....all I could do is send an email telling him I love him. All I want to do is shower him with love. But Im also, ryan is used to money and the way he knows how to get money is not at all `good`...ryan has no college degree and doesnt want to work I worry about things like drug dealing in his near future but I also want to think that maybe this is his chance to learn how to be on his own. In any case I will try to show him how much I love him and Im there for him.
Another strange info from my mom and why she didnt want to continue the therapy sessions with Ana even though I liked her. Apparently once my mother found out about my situation last summer she told Ana everything and ana never responded to her and to me she just told me that apparently she heard there is a crisis we need to talk about and it made my mother angry. Im confused because I dont quite fault Ana, perhaps she did what she seemed professional. My mother has a habit of butting into my therapy sessions and about what she thinks we should be talking about without my permission so maybe she felt by responding she was breaking some boundaries? I dont know. But to my mom she took at as Ana didnt bother to help me out of a urgent situation...