holes

[thescribe]

If you read my entry before i editted it then just forget it, i was in a pissed off bad day mood. Bad days come and go and unfortunately i had no vent so i wrote how i felt on here. It obiviously made things better...not. I'm getting sick and tired of this trying to change something and coming up short. I realized today that i am severly uncomfortable with changes and i need to break said paradigm in order to do better than i am doing right now. I worry too much about what is going to happen and do not concentrate enough on what needs to happen right at this moment. What SHOULD be going on as opposed to what might go on.

simply wishing i didn't feel as though i have a larger hole than i should to dig myself out of.