This Letter Goes to.....
I can't let myself regret anything I've ever done, and I have so much left in life to do. There is so much in life, there's a career, there's hobbies, there's relationships, all these and more. And you never know when its all gonna end. I may die in my sleep or even while I'm writing this... what if I do? What if I die, and I don't tell my girl that I love her, and she never realized it? What if I never get to be a teacher and will never be able to help educate people? Cause its not about history lessons or english, its about life! There are life lessons to be taught, and its on all of us to teach them. What if I can't? Wherever I go after I die I'll know that I didnt do what I set out to do, and that's not something I want. I want to tell my girl I love her, unconditionally. I want to feel the love she gives me, and know that to even just one person out there, I'm the most important person in their life. I want to help some kid realize that the Civil War or World War II, while defining moments in American History, are simply that, and can not compare to what's going on in HIS life at THAT moment. He may just be having a bad day, but to him, its everything. And someone needs to be there to say that its ok to have a bad day. I want to get into photography and movies, and music, I want to go fishing more, and I want to get a tan. WHAT IF I DIE? It may mean nothing to the majority, but to someone its gonna mean something, and every mind is a universe.
There is someone that I love, and I want to tell her this. I want to tell her that I lose all ability to function correctly when I see her. I want to tell her that I notice it on her when she sees me, that her eyes dilate, that through her closed lips comes a smile, that she breathes in and tenses her body slightly for just a fraction of a second, right as we meet eyes. I want to tell her I'll be there for her through anything that comes, that I'm surrendering myself to her. I want to know everything there is to know about her, her childhood, her future plans. I want to kiss her on the lips and trace my way over her body. She's the only shape I pray to. Now that I've found what I am looking for, I'm out to keep this. But WHAT IF she never hears this? What if I never get to tell her?
There is someone that I love, and I want to tell her this. I want to tell her that I lose all ability to function correctly when I see her. I want to tell her that I notice it on her when she sees me, that her eyes dilate, that through her closed lips comes a smile, that she breathes in and tenses her body slightly for just a fraction of a second, right as we meet eyes. I want to tell her I'll be there for her through anything that comes, that I'm surrendering myself to her. I want to know everything there is to know about her, her childhood, her future plans. I want to kiss her on the lips and trace my way over her body. She's the only shape I pray to. Now that I've found what I am looking for, I'm out to keep this. But WHAT IF she never hears this? What if I never get to tell her?