remember growing up together?

[theschoolgirl]

i want someone mature, that understands literature and poetry or at least enjoys it to come and talk with me over some coffee and maybe we can get to know each other. because i haven't gotten to get to know someone for a long time. and i miss it. and i feel like i should somehow make up for all the lost time. (i think what i really want from life doesn't exist. why can't i learn to be content with what i have? because i am so truly blessed with wonderful friends and family. but i'm too self centered to even care because i want something that will make me feel, even if it's only temporary.)
Jesus, why is it that i can't breathe without knowing that you want what's best for me? And yet i forget? Would you sustain?

P.S. i miss him. so much right now.