my big speech

[thesausage]

im sorry you guys
i was incredibly selfish
that trip i went on last weekend
didnt affect me so much then, as it has last night and throughout the day
i got into an argument with vanessa b about christianity and how im a hypocrite
she might be right about it
she might not be
i dont really want to argue anymore about that
but talking to her about the topic of christianity got me thinking about..
how my relationship with god is
my relationship with him has been pretty poor lately
ive done things i know god would not have wanted me to do
these things ive done i havnt asked for forgivness for either
which i intend to do
one thing i havnt asked for forgivness for yet
is what i put vanessa and luke through
but i think i should as well ask for forgivness from them
you might not be very involved or anything now
but if you two do grow closer or anything
god has given you guys a great gift..eachother
and i realized i might have ruind that
and that was incredibly selfish of myself
i felt that for once i should have thought about myself
but i also noticed that some things arent worth thinkin for yourself
"the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few"
i forgot where i heard that from
but i guess it fits into this situation
im really happy for you guys
and i want you to know i love you guys
you both have been there for me when i needed it
and now im going to do the same for you
you'll both be my best friends
until death do us part