depressed like no other

[thesausage]

ugh, tonite was okay, i thought id be a lot of fun but it wasnt...vanessa culdnt come over so i was kinda bummed out bout that :-/...claire went to the show at btd so she culdnt come but thats okay i guess..i never really pre-invited her in the first place nyway..stupid kid brady was bein a stupid fucker all night "ooh why do you wear stupid skin tight shirts like a fag?" yeah well atleast i dont wear shirts 30 sizes to big that go down past my croctch...ugh people jus pissed me off tonite...jareds on the phone with jill right now outside...i dont kno why but i jus feel like shit right now...its just i thought i had all these possibilites for people in my life to like be "interested" in and such...but it seems like all those people are jus dissapearing and they all happend to do that in less than 24 hours. it really pisses me off how i let this stupid shit get to my so easy. im such an idiot for ever thinkin that i had a chance with any of them. i dont deserve to even THINK about people as good as them..i piss myself off way to much, i put myself down way to much..but i guess its jus cuz i have nobody eles to take it out on but myself..im glad im not alone right now tho, cuz im afraid of what i mite do to myself if i was..not that anyone here wuld notice or care if i did

EDIT: yeah its none of these peoples fault that i feel this way..its my own so no worries