BLAH!!

[therustyabyss]

Jeremy said that this year we'd become closer cuz the 12th graders are gone. now he's ditching me for younger girls. it's like the 12's didnt even leave. I cried for an hour and a half over this. and i NEVER cry over something as stupid as a guy. this trip was really good cuz it gave me time to think and put things in perspective. i mean, i love jeremy. not the brother sister kind of love that i thought it was. i seriously love him. like, this is worse than riley. just jere's always been there for me. always. he knows that he's the reason i was crying. i can totally tell. just we never talk about our problems to eachother. it's just the messed up way we work. i had a really good talk with dave and he told me to tell jeremy everything. if only it were as easy as that. the first night of the trip bailey was like "why dont val and jeremy just go out?" and everyone was like "oh if only it were that simple" (Bailey's a junior and doesnt know about ... our problems) and last night lucy (bailey's best friend) was like "so why did you and jeremy break up?" cuz i mean, EVERYONE thinks we're either dating or are brother and sister.

if i had gotten the chance to hug him goodnight last night, i know i would have told him i loved him. but then again, he was with the juniors so i didnt get the chance