MEH.
World Domination Status: On hold for life crisis.
Haven't updated in six weeks, according to Livejournal. What have I been up to? Well, I'm thinking of dropping out of the library and information science Master's program I'm in, for one thing.
I just. Maybe I'm spoiled after undergrad, but I'm used to having at least one class per term that I'm actually enjoying. And I'm used to feeling like even if I'm not enjoying a class, at least I'm learning something. So far, the only parts I've enjoyed in this program have been doing research for one of my term papers last semester and editing one of the papers for my group this term. Yes, I know. Sad.
It's not that I think I wouldn't enjoy the kind of work I'd be doing if I completed the program and got a job in the field. It's that I feel like I'm forcing out every bit of work, I can't find it in myself to care about the reading, the coursework, any of it. I don't feel like I'm learning anything new - a major component of one of my classes last term was learning how to do a Boolean search. Which is something I learned how to do when I was 14, and have refined to a fine art form in the decade-plus since. On the weekends, I find myself looking forward to Monday, because I really enjoy nearly everything that I'm doing at my work (where I'm currently working as a graphic designer).
Talking to the AP about this, she feels that I should try and finish the program if I can stand it, since I'll be 1/5-1/4 of the way done once I'm done with this term. She also says that sometimes we have to have false starts in order to learn things like this about ourselves, and yes, sometimes those false starts cost us $5,000+.
To that end, I'm taking the day off work tomorrow to go down to Otis (and possibly CalState LA) with the AP and talk to them about their graphic design Master's programs. I'm thinking I might end up doing a certificate program in graphic design at SMC and then trying for a Master's in it, or possibly just saying the heck with it and doing a second bachelor's before tackling grad school again. I mean, between AP Art, the two classes I've had at SMC, and the two I took at UCLA, I've got nearly a year's worth of undergrad intro art classes done, and I already have all my GE requirements taken care of with the first bachelor's. Crucial that I make this decision before Thursday, as that's the last day to pay fall term tuition at SJSU.
Sigh. Sometimes I just wish I hadn't been a stubborn ass in high school and insisted on not going into art afterwards.
Haven't updated in six weeks, according to Livejournal. What have I been up to? Well, I'm thinking of dropping out of the library and information science Master's program I'm in, for one thing.
I just. Maybe I'm spoiled after undergrad, but I'm used to having at least one class per term that I'm actually enjoying. And I'm used to feeling like even if I'm not enjoying a class, at least I'm learning something. So far, the only parts I've enjoyed in this program have been doing research for one of my term papers last semester and editing one of the papers for my group this term. Yes, I know. Sad.
It's not that I think I wouldn't enjoy the kind of work I'd be doing if I completed the program and got a job in the field. It's that I feel like I'm forcing out every bit of work, I can't find it in myself to care about the reading, the coursework, any of it. I don't feel like I'm learning anything new - a major component of one of my classes last term was learning how to do a Boolean search. Which is something I learned how to do when I was 14, and have refined to a fine art form in the decade-plus since. On the weekends, I find myself looking forward to Monday, because I really enjoy nearly everything that I'm doing at my work (where I'm currently working as a graphic designer).
Talking to the AP about this, she feels that I should try and finish the program if I can stand it, since I'll be 1/5-1/4 of the way done once I'm done with this term. She also says that sometimes we have to have false starts in order to learn things like this about ourselves, and yes, sometimes those false starts cost us $5,000+.
To that end, I'm taking the day off work tomorrow to go down to Otis (and possibly CalState LA) with the AP and talk to them about their graphic design Master's programs. I'm thinking I might end up doing a certificate program in graphic design at SMC and then trying for a Master's in it, or possibly just saying the heck with it and doing a second bachelor's before tackling grad school again. I mean, between AP Art, the two classes I've had at SMC, and the two I took at UCLA, I've got nearly a year's worth of undergrad intro art classes done, and I already have all my GE requirements taken care of with the first bachelor's. Crucial that I make this decision before Thursday, as that's the last day to pay fall term tuition at SJSU.
Sigh. Sometimes I just wish I hadn't been a stubborn ass in high school and insisted on not going into art afterwards.