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update:
/ i didn't sign up for next semesters arabic class. in fact, i skipped the last 3 classes and it's over now. i really suck. i enjoyed learning.... i now have an arabic bible/cd that i can follow along with. suprisingly, i understand/catch on to most of the words. but did i give up a few weeks ago? why am i learning such a language anyway? my passion seems to have faded. i wish it didn't.
/ i still like bellydance/arabic fusion music.
/ my life has seemed to come to a standstill. i have become what i dispise. my social life sucks because i'm flakey. i'm a hermit and i hate it. i work four days a week and get to sleep in almost every day. i stopped attending extracurricular activities and took up the habit of renting dvds and watching them alone in my room. i am one sad pathetic human being. [apathy has the best of me...]
/ i wish i was travelling. as amazing as it is, i think it could be a very bad thing for me. i feel like it's my way of running away. its my way of hiding from everyone. when travelling, it's all about soaking up foreign sensations and taking risks you normally wouldn't take. i feel like another person when i am 'gone'... almost like taking drugs. then again, being in India is one psychodellic drug... haa. *note: no drugs were ever consumed in india or any other foreign country*
/ i tinkered the idea of going back to college but i am still not ready.
in short, life just got boring.
/ i didn't sign up for next semesters arabic class. in fact, i skipped the last 3 classes and it's over now. i really suck. i enjoyed learning.... i now have an arabic bible/cd that i can follow along with. suprisingly, i understand/catch on to most of the words. but did i give up a few weeks ago? why am i learning such a language anyway? my passion seems to have faded. i wish it didn't.
/ i still like bellydance/arabic fusion music.
/ my life has seemed to come to a standstill. i have become what i dispise. my social life sucks because i'm flakey. i'm a hermit and i hate it. i work four days a week and get to sleep in almost every day. i stopped attending extracurricular activities and took up the habit of renting dvds and watching them alone in my room. i am one sad pathetic human being. [apathy has the best of me...]
/ i wish i was travelling. as amazing as it is, i think it could be a very bad thing for me. i feel like it's my way of running away. its my way of hiding from everyone. when travelling, it's all about soaking up foreign sensations and taking risks you normally wouldn't take. i feel like another person when i am 'gone'... almost like taking drugs. then again, being in India is one psychodellic drug... haa. *note: no drugs were ever consumed in india or any other foreign country*
/ i tinkered the idea of going back to college but i am still not ready.
in short, life just got boring.