mewithoutyou, everytimeidie, sigur ros all in 2 month span SWEET

[therooms2cold0]

i'm bored with everything

last night was amazing
i missed holly so much
i slept at her friends house
which was cool cuz i never sleep anywhere
and got completly inebriated

i contradict myself, as always

the tea party was rescheduled

i went to wild oats today
i had never been there before
so i bought some food and made a smashing dinner

this week has been full of surprises
what do u do when 2 ppl tell u they love u but you know neither of them mean it?
and i want to love them, or atleast someone, but i dont.
i guess embracing in ambiguous kisses and words without substance has become a habit of mine.

next week im going down to emanuel to tour the college, i have no intention of going there but its worth looking at, i guess i'll go over to cambridge or newberry ?, newburry? st.

i'm reading these books
one, the gnostic gosphels
two, a heart breaking work of staggering genious
both wonderful.
everyone knows my obsession with religion
not that im crazy christian or anything
i just like to read about every religion
and exp. "false" eccentric works
which some may say the gnostic works are
or... lost writings that we're hidden by the romans
which is probable