Trepidation
It has been a while since I have posted. I have been having second thoughts about my cynicism and my ire at work. I have been conflicted about the catharsis of writing out here what I see and feel and what that could mean if the wrong people get a hold of it. I certainly don't mean to be cruel. I would explain to T-Bomb how I see things if I thought it would do me any good. On the contrary, past experience with speaking from the hip has gotten me nothing but trouble.
There is now a form for documenting discussions between managers and their employees and I certainly do not want to be written up for speaking my mind. Rocket has now experienced this first hand over a discussion of department responsibilities. Either that scenario will play out or I will be mocked later on for having 'feelings', or other people (anyone else) will hear about how I have no place defining procedure for the department/company. Usually what happens when I express confusion or try to give input is nothing. No follow up or follow through. If T-Bomb reads this and it doesn't illicit a flame war (which I will have full knowledge of before hand because he will discuss it with Rocket and anyone else who he can get unbiased feedback about why I am so upset) or disciplinary action, it will be disregarded (as far as I will know).
So, this is for me. It's all about me. This blog is not typed to help make things better at work. I will make my contributions while I am on the clock. I have a great team of co-workers and we will work through whatever comes down the road. Through the past month (six weeks really) of not posting I have had to put up with so much change and so much of it sickeningly inane. I have much material to fill in. I have at times worried if I am starting to lose it. It should really wrack me up to be served with more paperwork and procedure every weekly staff meeting. Am I so poisoned that I can't get angry or insulted about it? Why can't I stop laughing?
*sigh*
There is now a form for documenting discussions between managers and their employees and I certainly do not want to be written up for speaking my mind. Rocket has now experienced this first hand over a discussion of department responsibilities. Either that scenario will play out or I will be mocked later on for having 'feelings', or other people (anyone else) will hear about how I have no place defining procedure for the department/company. Usually what happens when I express confusion or try to give input is nothing. No follow up or follow through. If T-Bomb reads this and it doesn't illicit a flame war (which I will have full knowledge of before hand because he will discuss it with Rocket and anyone else who he can get unbiased feedback about why I am so upset) or disciplinary action, it will be disregarded (as far as I will know).
So, this is for me. It's all about me. This blog is not typed to help make things better at work. I will make my contributions while I am on the clock. I have a great team of co-workers and we will work through whatever comes down the road. Through the past month (six weeks really) of not posting I have had to put up with so much change and so much of it sickeningly inane. I have much material to fill in. I have at times worried if I am starting to lose it. It should really wrack me up to be served with more paperwork and procedure every weekly staff meeting. Am I so poisoned that I can't get angry or insulted about it? Why can't I stop laughing?
*sigh*