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Last night was… interesting to say the least. I'm not sure I should be horrified or just glad to be alive. I have never… it is odd to think of those creatures as something to pity and I would not take back my actions, but I don't like the fact I killed last night. I don't like it at all, but I don't think that will stop me from doing it again if I can't see another choice. On to more cheerful matters though.
It seems my choice to ally with Sephiroth was a good one, the man is a truly excellent fighter and seems to have decided that my alchemy makes me useful enough to be worth the minor trouble of protecting. I'm not so sure about the two newcomers though… He seems to know the both of them, but my short observation didn't give me chance to see if they had been friends or enemies or merely acquaintances. Perhaps I can find out more during the day. I missed my chance at breakfast, apparently between the difficulty she had waking me and the extremely pitiful look I gave her the nurse decided to just bring me a tray.
The missed opportunity for socializing at least got me more time to sleep though and allowed me to add a few pieces of metal to my stores, as well as a drinking cup. I should list what I have just so I can take proper inventory next time I pack up to go somewhere. Two metal tipped walking sticks, because that is what they have mostly been used as, four batteries, one flashlight, a key ring, a journal missing pages, several loose sheets of paper which I intend to keep on my person when not sleeping, the altered sweater form last night, which I took the opportunity to repair before sealing the drawer with my stock of supplies in it. Also some gauze and four scalpels courtesy of the man I made paired short blades for. It seemed fair enough trade for the work I did since he had his companion didn't stay to help us get back to our rooms. A radio, and now a cup and two pieces of silverware.
I will have to be more careful with my abilities from now on I think. I can only do 3-4 moderately sized transmutations without feeling drained. I might be able to push for one or two more in an emergency, but I fear that would leave me useless, if not unconscious. From now I think I should limit my weapon making to direct allies or people who are willing to bargain and pay for my skills in some manner. I don't want to end up trying to arm this whole place with nothing to show for it after all. There needs to be at least some sort of trade.
It seems my choice to ally with Sephiroth was a good one, the man is a truly excellent fighter and seems to have decided that my alchemy makes me useful enough to be worth the minor trouble of protecting. I'm not so sure about the two newcomers though… He seems to know the both of them, but my short observation didn't give me chance to see if they had been friends or enemies or merely acquaintances. Perhaps I can find out more during the day. I missed my chance at breakfast, apparently between the difficulty she had waking me and the extremely pitiful look I gave her the nurse decided to just bring me a tray.
The missed opportunity for socializing at least got me more time to sleep though and allowed me to add a few pieces of metal to my stores, as well as a drinking cup. I should list what I have just so I can take proper inventory next time I pack up to go somewhere. Two metal tipped walking sticks, because that is what they have mostly been used as, four batteries, one flashlight, a key ring, a journal missing pages, several loose sheets of paper which I intend to keep on my person when not sleeping, the altered sweater form last night, which I took the opportunity to repair before sealing the drawer with my stock of supplies in it. Also some gauze and four scalpels courtesy of the man I made paired short blades for. It seemed fair enough trade for the work I did since he had his companion didn't stay to help us get back to our rooms. A radio, and now a cup and two pieces of silverware.
I will have to be more careful with my abilities from now on I think. I can only do 3-4 moderately sized transmutations without feeling drained. I might be able to push for one or two more in an emergency, but I fear that would leave me useless, if not unconscious. From now I think I should limit my weapon making to direct allies or people who are willing to bargain and pay for my skills in some manner. I don't want to end up trying to arm this whole place with nothing to show for it after all. There needs to be at least some sort of trade.