On Vox: So I've been neglecting all my blogs lately

[therevsoup]

I've been on Twitter and Facebook mostly.

Been depressed as hell lately. I'm sick of trying to interact with people only to piss them off or creep them out. I'm not trying to be a shitty person. Honestly, I have no fucking idea what I'm doing wrong. I really have no idea why people react negatively to me so often and I have no idea how to tell when

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[immaculatestars]

Hmm, this is a tough situation. Personally, I don't really agree at all with people that say "Don't worry, keep your head up, it'll pass" because likely you've been dealing with this shit your entire life, and it clearly bothers you to some degree, so no, I don't think it's alright, and you should seek help from someone.

Now, I don't have any personal experience with this (not to sound all "OMG I'm so totally wonderful, I have no issues" but I know a LOT of people who have. My ex boyfriend (the one I was with for 5 and a half years until this Christmas), my best friend since high school, to some extent my sister, and my new boyfriend, all have social anxiety issues/anxiety attack issues/talking to people/doing interviews/holding jobs/making friends/talking on phones/being in crowds ISSUES. Now, I know that for every mental illness, it stems from somewhere else, everyone has different symptoms, everyone needs to deal with it differently. Some should take some form of drugs, some should talk to a psychiatrist/psychologist, some need to let their friends know that they don't want to go to certain places anymore/talk to their family about staying away from certain topics or being more accepting of an issue that is in NO way your fault, and something that is incredibly hard to deal with.

I can't tell you what will help you, but I would recommend talking to your doctor, because something is not "normal", and while "normal" isn't necessarily the most important thing (and is a contentious word), if it's making your life anything other than happy, then it is a big deal. And someone can help you. It might take a long time to find that person (the right therapist, the right friend etc...) and the process of figuring all those issues out, and learning to live differently will also take a long time, but it doesn't have to suck forever.

I think the fact that you've decided you're not happy with some stuff, and thought about changing things is a positive step, and if you need anyone to talk to, ever, just let me know. I know that was super ramble-y, I hope it made some semblance of sense. And if it's any consolation, I think you're rad, and I'm super glad that I internet-know you :)