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OK..The only real reason I'm updating is because I don't have anywhere else to go. This one song has been picking and picking at my brain. I heard this guy named Nick sing it to my friend Maggie @ church one night, and I loved it, but I never knew what they name of it was. I started to hear it on the radio, and I assumed it was called "Collide"...so I went to walmart.com, and searched it, and found it! Yay! It's by Howie Day. I love it, man. Look at the lyrics:
The dawn is breaking...
A light shining through...
You're barely waking...
And I'm tangled up in you. (yeah)
do do do x4
I'm open, you're closed.
Where I'll follow you'll go.
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again.
Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills my mind,
I somehow find you and I collide.
do do do x4
I'm quiet, you know,
You make a first impression.
I've found I’m scared to know,
I'm always on your mind.
Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the stars refuse to shine.
Out of the back you fall in time,
I somehow find you and I collide.
Don't stop here...
I lost my place...
I'm close behind...
do do do x8
Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills your mind,
You finally find you and I collide.
do do do do do do
You finally find, you and I collide.
do do do do do do
You finally find, you and I collide.
do do do x8
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It makes me cry. I was supposed to call Matthew "sometime later", but Mom & Dad have decided to stay up late tonight. It totally sucks. He probably thinks I'm blowing him off now, but I can't call until they go to bed. And, again, sappy me relates every song I listen to to something, and you can only assume what I related this one to. I miss him, guys. He really is a big part of me, and this whole not seeing him every day deal is killing me. I'm...sad. Like to the point of crying. But, I didn't come on here to make y'all read my pity party. But..that chorus...it just.."even the best fall down sometimes..." it makes me want to fast-forward 5 years and have the ability to wake up every day, and look at him sleeping..or staring back at me. *tear* No one else can really understand, and if you do, that's wonderful. My God, even whenever I'm at his house, and he falls asleep on me when we're sitting on the couch, or on the bed when we're watching a really boring movie, I just..watch him. I'm scared to move, because I don't want to miss anything. *shrugs* Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm "too young to know what love is..or to know what I want in life." That's what everyone wants to tell me. But he's not too young. He knows. And he can teach me. He has taught me. *wipes tear* Man..I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to make you go through that. I just need someone to talk to.
*fake,happy mask* That movie Dark Water looks really good. So does Charlie & The Chocolate Factory...and Corpse Bride..and..wow. There's a lot of movies I want to see. Well, you said that you like to read my journal, and I said that it's the only real way I express myself now..so, here you go. There was an opening into my heart. Alright. Mom just came in and said 'goodnight.' That means they're going to bed. 15 more minutes. Then they'll be asleep. *sigh* Anyway...I'm gonna go. Email me if you want. I'll be here.
The dawn is breaking...
A light shining through...
You're barely waking...
And I'm tangled up in you. (yeah)
do do do x4
I'm open, you're closed.
Where I'll follow you'll go.
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again.
Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills my mind,
I somehow find you and I collide.
do do do x4
I'm quiet, you know,
You make a first impression.
I've found I’m scared to know,
I'm always on your mind.
Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the stars refuse to shine.
Out of the back you fall in time,
I somehow find you and I collide.
Don't stop here...
I lost my place...
I'm close behind...
do do do x8
Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills your mind,
You finally find you and I collide.
do do do do do do
You finally find, you and I collide.
do do do do do do
You finally find, you and I collide.
do do do x8
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It makes me cry. I was supposed to call Matthew "sometime later", but Mom & Dad have decided to stay up late tonight. It totally sucks. He probably thinks I'm blowing him off now, but I can't call until they go to bed. And, again, sappy me relates every song I listen to to something, and you can only assume what I related this one to. I miss him, guys. He really is a big part of me, and this whole not seeing him every day deal is killing me. I'm...sad. Like to the point of crying. But, I didn't come on here to make y'all read my pity party. But..that chorus...it just.."even the best fall down sometimes..." it makes me want to fast-forward 5 years and have the ability to wake up every day, and look at him sleeping..or staring back at me. *tear* No one else can really understand, and if you do, that's wonderful. My God, even whenever I'm at his house, and he falls asleep on me when we're sitting on the couch, or on the bed when we're watching a really boring movie, I just..watch him. I'm scared to move, because I don't want to miss anything. *shrugs* Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm "too young to know what love is..or to know what I want in life." That's what everyone wants to tell me. But he's not too young. He knows. And he can teach me. He has taught me. *wipes tear* Man..I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to make you go through that. I just need someone to talk to.
*fake,happy mask* That movie Dark Water looks really good. So does Charlie & The Chocolate Factory...and Corpse Bride..and..wow. There's a lot of movies I want to see. Well, you said that you like to read my journal, and I said that it's the only real way I express myself now..so, here you go. There was an opening into my heart. Alright. Mom just came in and said 'goodnight.' That means they're going to bed. 15 more minutes. Then they'll be asleep. *sigh* Anyway...I'm gonna go. Email me if you want. I'll be here.