im so tired right now.. and its just frustrating and hard. i woke up and thought... "lauren's been gone for 4 or 5 hours...she's probably almost there." but it didnt even hit me. all of the sudden im sitting here and i go... "fuck...lauren's gone." and its just hard. i miss her. she's my best friend. and yes..i know i say that a lot. but i mean it. i dont like how everyone is leaving one by one. its too sad. i love lauren. more than anythingggg.