hopes
I feel good today.
It's bright out.
I got some coffee. I took some photos. I still have a little makeup on from Halloweening last night as Sylvia Plath.
Austin and I went ice skating on Friday. It was cold and fun. We got hot chocolate. We made chili. We watched a spoof zombie movie. It was a satisfying day. However much the distance between us gets to me, I can't imagine my life without him in it. We are pilgrims and pirates and weirdos and nerds. Like most of my friends.
I've been dead to Bloomington for a while; unsure of how to enjoy it without the person I love here.
It's been nothing personal, just a battle with myself to assess who and what really matters to me.
I also feel extremely overwhelmed with all the work that is going into my semester abroad. I would obviously make it more difficult for myself in all respects by choosing a non-IU program. I just know it will be worth it not going with the IU-sponsored program. I hope I get that Hutton Honors College grant. I also can't handle talking to my parents lately since Italy is the only thing that our conversations revolve around. It's been hard because I'm still here, I'm still living my life, but having to plan 6 months ahead for them for when I get back. I'll cherish the day when they can stop needing me to plan things for their security and let me be and talk to me about the things I love and am passionate about besides my education.
Ah, the people we are blessed with as family. I love them thoroughly for who they are and what they want for me.
My last day at Cactus is November 11. I felt a wave of emotion for the first time about that today. I have made many good friends through that shop. Who knows, maybe I will come back to work after I return from my sojourn.
For these last two months in the States, I want many adventures with many special people.
It's bright out.
I got some coffee. I took some photos. I still have a little makeup on from Halloweening last night as Sylvia Plath.
Austin and I went ice skating on Friday. It was cold and fun. We got hot chocolate. We made chili. We watched a spoof zombie movie. It was a satisfying day. However much the distance between us gets to me, I can't imagine my life without him in it. We are pilgrims and pirates and weirdos and nerds. Like most of my friends.
I've been dead to Bloomington for a while; unsure of how to enjoy it without the person I love here.
It's been nothing personal, just a battle with myself to assess who and what really matters to me.
I also feel extremely overwhelmed with all the work that is going into my semester abroad. I would obviously make it more difficult for myself in all respects by choosing a non-IU program. I just know it will be worth it not going with the IU-sponsored program. I hope I get that Hutton Honors College grant. I also can't handle talking to my parents lately since Italy is the only thing that our conversations revolve around. It's been hard because I'm still here, I'm still living my life, but having to plan 6 months ahead for them for when I get back. I'll cherish the day when they can stop needing me to plan things for their security and let me be and talk to me about the things I love and am passionate about besides my education.
Ah, the people we are blessed with as family. I love them thoroughly for who they are and what they want for me.
My last day at Cactus is November 11. I felt a wave of emotion for the first time about that today. I have made many good friends through that shop. Who knows, maybe I will come back to work after I return from my sojourn.
For these last two months in the States, I want many adventures with many special people.