Nov 11, 2006 09:24
Someone once told me, a long time ago, that everything would get better. So, how come it just keeps getting worse? No matter what I do, no matter what happiness I find, it's corrupted. Remember I was gonna go shopping tomorrow? Wrong. My stepmom's friend died so she has to run a funeral. Or something. I don't know, I don't care, but she can't take me shopping. Which means I'm not going period. Maybe you think it's insensitive or something. But I found something that made me happy. One thing. After such a horrible week, it was my brief little shining light. And now it's gone. Stolen from me. And I hate it. All I wanted was just something, just one thing to make me smile, to make me realize that I had something to be happy about. I wish my birthday wasn't Tuesday. I wish it wasn't ever so that I'd never have to remember the stupid day I was brought on this stupid, sad, depressing earth. In fact, I wish I'd just never been born period.
How can I look at the bright side when it's non-existant?