.013 // How can I feel good when nothing's right?
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I can't believe we did that. Oh God, just. Why did I let that happen? Why did it feel so good?
That was such a bad idea, on so many levels.
I know he's not looking for more than a bit of fun. He never made a secret out of it. Might as well have it tattooed right onto his forehead. In bold letters. No monogamy here. We're friends for God's sake. And... Okay, so he's nothing like Danny, but, fuck, I can't do that again. I can't do sex without love, I've seen how that turns out. At least Tony is better in bed than Danny. At least it was good for me, too.
Cat, Cat, you're such a fucking idiot.
Oh God, I don't want people to look at me like they looked at my mother. Like I'm some kind of whore. The town's slut. Only, only I wanted it and she was raped. That makes her less of a slut than me and if people looked at her like that... Oh God.
And isn't he with Tosh? Hell, I should have remembered all these things last night. I never should've done it.
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You know, there are some days when I wish I could actually get drunk on all those Gin and Tonics I down.
[ ooc; Freaking out about sleeping with Tony again. ]
I can't believe we did that. Oh God, just. Why did I let that happen? Why did it feel so good?
That was such a bad idea, on so many levels.
I know he's not looking for more than a bit of fun. He never made a secret out of it. Might as well have it tattooed right onto his forehead. In bold letters. No monogamy here. We're friends for God's sake. And... Okay, so he's nothing like Danny, but, fuck, I can't do that again. I can't do sex without love, I've seen how that turns out. At least Tony is better in bed than Danny. At least it was good for me, too.
Cat, Cat, you're such a fucking idiot.
Oh God, I don't want people to look at me like they looked at my mother. Like I'm some kind of whore. The town's slut. Only, only I wanted it and she was raped. That makes her less of a slut than me and if people looked at her like that... Oh God.
And isn't he with Tosh? Hell, I should have remembered all these things last night. I never should've done it.
( / private )
You know, there are some days when I wish I could actually get drunk on all those Gin and Tonics I down.
[ ooc; Freaking out about sleeping with Tony again. ]