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Not much to say I guess. I feel very ignored and neglected. I don't feel as important. I feel 2nd rate and as if everyone is being put before me. I want it to stop, but it won't. The only time I am ever happy is when we are talking, but you won't talk to me as much. Not your fault, but it's up sitting when you say you gotta go because you need to sleep and than go and do something with someone else. Time without you doesn't matter and it's because I have no life and I am a loser, it's true. I just I could find away to block all other time. Because your the only thing that makes me happy and I am sad the rest of the time because I have nothing. My life is empty during those times. I'm scared of the sun at this point, I don't want daybreak to come. I don't want another day of pain without you to talk to. Tomorrow will be the worst yet. Maybe it's testing me and preparing me for a not so distant future were you will be even less in my life because of you going away to school. I wish I could be with you, I wish I could be there so we didn't have to spend time together like this. It is my fault that we aren't right now too, but is it really my fault that it has to be this way than? yet, I suffer because of it. I can't blame you though. I just want more time with you again.