Thanks!
Well, in the honor of Thanksgiving, I've decided to go ahead and write a blog all about being thankful. Not very original, I know, but it just seems like the thing to do.
I looked back over my years of blogging, and I didn't find a whole lot of posting about being thankful for much of anything. I found a lot of angry, bitter, hurting posts about my ex boyfriend Matt and all the hell he put me through, my frustrations with school.. I found a lot of complaining about looking for a law enforcement job, and being sad and lonely and broke. But that's all behind me now.
So... what AM I thankful for this Thanksgiving 2007?
-I'm thankful, first and foremost for my best friends who have held my hand, given me a shoulder to cry on, lent me money, given me moral support, complimented me when I was feeling down and more and more and more.. if it wasn't for my friends, I simply wouldn't be. I have one special thank you, and he knows who he is. For giving me more good days (and nights) and more hope and help than anyone... and for being the one person who can make me smile even when it seems impossible. I am grateful for every single one of my amazing friends.
-I'm thankful for my parents, and most of all, my mom, who's helped give me the life I want. She's spoiled me, but I appreciate everything she's done for me. I'm extremely lucky to be living in a big, beautiful house full of beautiful furniture and awesome things, and it's all because of her.
-I'm thankful for the health and happiness of my dog, Bear, my cat Gypsy and all of my wonderful bunnies. I am particularly grateful that my 14 year old bunny Pepper, and my 12 year old bunny, Duncan are doing as well as they are. I'm so grateful that my mom is able to give Duncan the constant care that he needs, and that I was able to spend a lot of quality time w/ him when I was home.
-I'm thankful I have a wonderful home to go back to, and for all my friends who live up in New Jersey and make it such a great place to go back to. Thanks Justin, Jill, Amie, Lauren-freshman-Lauren, Emily, etc etc!
-I'm grateful that I am finally working in the career that I've always wanted, that it's going well so far, that my FTO is AWESOME. I'm grateful for my safety and health, and hope that it continues and that I spend my career keeping busy and interested and doing well, and above all, that myself and my coworkers stay safe. I'm also extremely thankful that I didn't have to run the PAT again in block training, and that I got scheduled to work nights!
-I'm grateful, as I said, for my beautiful house and all the awesome stuff in it, including my kick ass computer, my new huge 50" plasma TV, my wii, and my beautiful furniture and killer kitchen stuff. I have my dream home, and you guys should see it with all the Christmas lights and decorations. I have everything I've ever wanted here.
I'm thankful for FIVE years of live journal posting, documenting my life on a daily basis farther back than I could possibly remember in such detail with out it. I'm thankful for the lessons I've learned, and the strength I've had to succeed in the face of adversity. That even when I absolutely wanted to give up, that no one let me. I'm grateful for all the rough days I've had that have made me stronger and made me appreciate the good days even more.
I'm grateful I was able to leave Matt behind, and that he is no longer a part of my life, bringing me down, and making me hurt. I'm thankful I was able to hold my head up high and get rid of him once and for all because he is a lousy excuse for a human being, and I deserve so much better. I am grateful for the strength I've found to be single and not codependant and needy. I'm so proud that I didn't fall apart or turn to alcohol or try and find some other way to escape the hurt. I just put him, and all of that hell behind me, and I'm not going to let it ruin me, or my future relationships. Matt is dead to me, and I am so lucky that I found out when I did, two years ago, the day before Thanksgiving, what a rotten person he is - because it saved me from the life I wanted to spend with him. My life is a million times better now than it ever was under his thumb, and I am so very lucky for that. I could have married him like I wanted, and ruined my entire future.
I'm really thankful for the fact that I'm working 12 hour shifts, and that I often get to go home a little bit early. I'm grateful for the enormous paychecks I get for work I feel like I'd do for free. I'm thankful for the free coffee and cheap meals that keep me full and happy while I'm working, and the fact that I got all brand new equipment and a take home car, and that of all the places I tried to find a job, I ended up getting hired by the best place of them all. I'm really grateful that I was never weak enough to let alcohol or drugs run my life. I'm also thankful for all my days off, which I will always try to use to the best of my advantage, and for all my friends in Pinellas County who give me a place to escape when living so far south leaves me feeling a little lonely.
Over all, I realize how lucky I am, and I am very, very thankful for everything I have. I don't really need anything. My life is perfect, and I thank everyone who has helped get me here.
I looked back over my years of blogging, and I didn't find a whole lot of posting about being thankful for much of anything. I found a lot of angry, bitter, hurting posts about my ex boyfriend Matt and all the hell he put me through, my frustrations with school.. I found a lot of complaining about looking for a law enforcement job, and being sad and lonely and broke. But that's all behind me now.
So... what AM I thankful for this Thanksgiving 2007?
-I'm thankful, first and foremost for my best friends who have held my hand, given me a shoulder to cry on, lent me money, given me moral support, complimented me when I was feeling down and more and more and more.. if it wasn't for my friends, I simply wouldn't be. I have one special thank you, and he knows who he is. For giving me more good days (and nights) and more hope and help than anyone... and for being the one person who can make me smile even when it seems impossible. I am grateful for every single one of my amazing friends.
-I'm thankful for my parents, and most of all, my mom, who's helped give me the life I want. She's spoiled me, but I appreciate everything she's done for me. I'm extremely lucky to be living in a big, beautiful house full of beautiful furniture and awesome things, and it's all because of her.
-I'm thankful for the health and happiness of my dog, Bear, my cat Gypsy and all of my wonderful bunnies. I am particularly grateful that my 14 year old bunny Pepper, and my 12 year old bunny, Duncan are doing as well as they are. I'm so grateful that my mom is able to give Duncan the constant care that he needs, and that I was able to spend a lot of quality time w/ him when I was home.
-I'm thankful I have a wonderful home to go back to, and for all my friends who live up in New Jersey and make it such a great place to go back to. Thanks Justin, Jill, Amie, Lauren-freshman-Lauren, Emily, etc etc!
-I'm grateful that I am finally working in the career that I've always wanted, that it's going well so far, that my FTO is AWESOME. I'm grateful for my safety and health, and hope that it continues and that I spend my career keeping busy and interested and doing well, and above all, that myself and my coworkers stay safe. I'm also extremely thankful that I didn't have to run the PAT again in block training, and that I got scheduled to work nights!
-I'm grateful, as I said, for my beautiful house and all the awesome stuff in it, including my kick ass computer, my new huge 50" plasma TV, my wii, and my beautiful furniture and killer kitchen stuff. I have my dream home, and you guys should see it with all the Christmas lights and decorations. I have everything I've ever wanted here.
I'm thankful for FIVE years of live journal posting, documenting my life on a daily basis farther back than I could possibly remember in such detail with out it. I'm thankful for the lessons I've learned, and the strength I've had to succeed in the face of adversity. That even when I absolutely wanted to give up, that no one let me. I'm grateful for all the rough days I've had that have made me stronger and made me appreciate the good days even more.
I'm grateful I was able to leave Matt behind, and that he is no longer a part of my life, bringing me down, and making me hurt. I'm thankful I was able to hold my head up high and get rid of him once and for all because he is a lousy excuse for a human being, and I deserve so much better. I am grateful for the strength I've found to be single and not codependant and needy. I'm so proud that I didn't fall apart or turn to alcohol or try and find some other way to escape the hurt. I just put him, and all of that hell behind me, and I'm not going to let it ruin me, or my future relationships. Matt is dead to me, and I am so lucky that I found out when I did, two years ago, the day before Thanksgiving, what a rotten person he is - because it saved me from the life I wanted to spend with him. My life is a million times better now than it ever was under his thumb, and I am so very lucky for that. I could have married him like I wanted, and ruined my entire future.
I'm really thankful for the fact that I'm working 12 hour shifts, and that I often get to go home a little bit early. I'm grateful for the enormous paychecks I get for work I feel like I'd do for free. I'm thankful for the free coffee and cheap meals that keep me full and happy while I'm working, and the fact that I got all brand new equipment and a take home car, and that of all the places I tried to find a job, I ended up getting hired by the best place of them all. I'm really grateful that I was never weak enough to let alcohol or drugs run my life. I'm also thankful for all my days off, which I will always try to use to the best of my advantage, and for all my friends in Pinellas County who give me a place to escape when living so far south leaves me feeling a little lonely.
Over all, I realize how lucky I am, and I am very, very thankful for everything I have. I don't really need anything. My life is perfect, and I thank everyone who has helped get me here.