Honeysuckle
E: There's nothing to be sorry about. You are entitled to feel how you feel. It's good that at least you told me and not keep it inside you :) so i know what's going on in that cute head of yours ;)
E: Having said that, I still love you to bits! :)
Which explains:
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still gets
I used to be of the opinion that my exercise and gym routine would take the pilot seat and nothing will ever stop me from my faithful trips there. But that changed.
I also thought that when you put two together, there will definitely be fights and quarrels and god forbidden raising of voices. That changed too.
I thought too that I would treasure me-time, and not want to meet the other everyday because of suffocation. That definitely changed.
And, I opined that couple-shirts are a definite no-no. Color-coordination, sweet, but same shirt, hell no. That thankfully, has not changed!
I suppose I can be very independent and enjoy being single, but at the end of the day, I discover that I need alot of love while I give it freely. And now having it, it changes me in many ways.
Primarily because Emery is very different from me.
It's short-fused vs 'long-fused'; passionate and excitement vs cool and chill; routine vs spontaneity. As I discover about Emery, I'm beginning to see the gems in this wonderful person and grow amidst the changes. I realise that we don't fight, I don't have to always plan and can skip gym classes, and that I'm never suffocated.
Imperfections and momentary ugliness, everyone's got them. It made me rethink our fit. But soon I realise that only Emery's got these unique imperfections, only Emery's habits get me irritated.
Yet, he's my favorite person.
Because Emery is generous with his love for me, even when I don't believe a little me can be loved. Because he believes in me and sits through my rollercoaster rides. Because Emery always tries.
He always always tries.
And it touches my heart deeply knowing so. He could've let me be, or display his annoyance and expect more. But no. He always tries to make it good regardless of culprit.
So that one time when I could've done more for him and unknowingly didn't, he just kept quiet and handled the grey alone, and I'll always feel bad.
This is why he's my favorite person, and everyday I thank God for giving me him.
Even though it's Valentine's day, and a first proper one for me, we both don't really buy into all that hype. We decided on zero gifts, just the usual, going to Cold Storage and then cooking dinner - a fav :)
I've got my gift anyway. Seeing that every Valentine's Day is just one week ahead of our anniversary, if we can make it till then, it's a gift in itself.
It's the best gift, to be together.