[One-shot] Messages {Ohno POV} (Part 2)
Title: Messages {Ohno POV} (Part 2)
Pairing: Ohmiya
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romace
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story.
Summary: Ohno couldn't understand what made Nino different from the others, was he only one of his best friends or Ohno had some feelings toward him?
A/N: This is beta-ed by potatoos, thank you so much <33.
Ohno was in the middle of filming when his phone vibrated. As it wasn’t his turn to be filmed yet, he walked out the studio to read the message which just coming. It was Nino.
From: Kazu
Subject: Are you free?
I have free time tonight. If you want to, we could go to the place you have mentioned before. Just the two of us. Okay?
He smiled at the screen and immediately replied.
From: Ohno
Subject: Re: Are you free?
Of course! I’m free tonight too. Let’s go together then!
From: Kazu
Subject: Re: Re: Are you free?
So I’ll meet you at 8.00 PM, okay? Be sure you’re ready by then, don’t let me wait or I’ll kill you.
From: Ohno
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Are you free?
I won’t. ^^ I missed you so much these days, Nino. See you at 8.
Ohno really meant it. He couldn’t deny that he missed Nino the most, and that he wanted to meet him so much. He wanted to convey his true feelings to Nino, and hoped that the younger man wouldn’t take it as a joke, because Ohno himself never thought it was.
For the rest of the day, the staff was a little surprise to see a happy and active Ohno. However, the director yelled at Ohno to stop smiling in the middle of the scene in which his character was going to kill his enemy.
He finished filming at around 7, and he went home to take a rest before the date. He couldn’t help but grinned shyly whenever he thought about Nino asking him out. This was rare, as Nino always liked to stay at home and play with his video games, and it was hard to drag him out of his home to go out for a drink. Ohno knew that if Nino had to choose between him and the DS, Nino would not hesitate to choose his valuable games, and even though Ohno was disappointed with that thought, he must said that was the Nino he loved
He was almost asleep when his phone vibrated in his pocket. Ohno lazily took it out and looked at the screen which was lightening. It was Nino. Frowning in confusion, he opened the phone.
From: Kazu
Subject: Hontou ni gomen, Riida
They say that the photo shoot has some problems and I need to redo it. I can’t go with you tonight. I’m really sorry, Riida.
Ohno sighed in frustration and tossed his phone on his bed, rolled over onto his back and stared blankly at the ceiling.
Ohno wondered at times that if Nino had to choose between him and work, what would he choose? He knew the answer , but still his heart tightened painfully when thinking about that. He bit his lips. He couldn’t be so selfish. It was work, and Nino had no choice.
That night, Ohno couldn’t sleep. He stared at the window, his mind went blank and he didn’t know what to think anymore.
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Ohno realized that he didn’t know how to deal with Nino anymore. He couldn’t understand the feelings he had for Nino, as they were so different from how he felt for the others. It was strange. He convinced himself many times that Nino was only his best friend, but now he just couldn’t trust himself anymore. Nino was definitely more than just a best friend; he was more special, more close, and more important. Ohno didn’t want to lose Nino, nor did he want to leave him either. He only wanted to stay beside Nino, to feel his warmth and smell his scent. He wanted Nino to be beside him forever, to be the first one he met in the morning, and the last one before he fell asleep.
These thoughts scared Ohno, but he didn’t know why. He didn’t know where the desires come from, but they refused to leave his mind, haunting him everyday until he felt lost and scared and even hated himself having those feelings. What would Nino think if he figured that Ohno harboured those feelings for him? What would Nino feel if he knew that Ohno wanted to hug him so badly, to hold him tight, to smooth his hair, and to make him smile… Would he feel disgusted? Both were guys, and Nino didn’t seem like he was … gay, or something.
Wait, what did he just think?
Wouldn’t this mean he was… gay?
No.
There was no way this could be true. Ohno shook his head violently and took a deep breath. He just was very close to Nino and he wanted the younger man to be happy.
He didn’t love Nino that way.
…Did he?
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The next day, they were filming Arashi no Shukudai kun. Since Ohno did not sleep enough the night before, with those thinking about Nino, now he was more sleepy than ever. He couldn’t concentrate on the conversation, and only managed to laugh when Nino said something really funny. He leaned in closer to Nino, but he felt Nino tensed and thus, he immediately backed away a little. He wondered if Nino was annoyed with him. More than that, Nino refused to make eyes contact with him for the whole day. Whenever their eyes met, Nino would fake a smile and turn away to do something else, ignored Ohno’s gaze at his back with disappointed eyes. The other three sometimes shot Nino a worried look, as if they knew something. Ohno recognized that Nino had kept his secret from only him, and he felt his heart hurting, and he was so lonely and scared. Ohno didn’t want Nino to leave him, but what could he do? It seemed as though Nino had already left him.
The filming ended, and Ohno sighed in relief. It was a busy day for him and he was exhausted, so he returned to the greenroom to take a rest before the next shooting began. On his way in, Ohno spotted Nino slipping out of the room quietly. It was unusual, as Nino never left alone like that. He would always dragg Ohno, or Aiba, or Jun to come back together.
Ohno decided to follow Nino, thinking that they could finally have a private time, just the two of them and might be he could ask him something, which he had wanted to know for a long time. He wanted to ask Nino if he would tell him something, anything before he went insane with all the self-conflicts in his mind.
Ohno caught up to Nino when the younger man was waiting for the elevator, staring into space that he didn’t notice Ohno was approaching. He put a hand on Nino’s shoulder to catch his attention.
Nino tensed under his touch, and it made Ohno retract his hand immediately. The skin which had made contact with Nino’s shoulder was now burning his palm. Nino turned back and looked at him ,confused. Ohno asked quietly.
- Where are you going?
- Un… Bathroom? - Nino hesitated. Ohno was tired of Nino’s excuses. He wanted to know the truth. Just what did he do wrong?
- You’re acting strange all day. What’s wrong? - He demanded.
- No…nothing. I just was… tired, and…
- You always use being tired as an excuse - Ohno frowned - You never tell me the truth. Why do you try to hide it?
Ohno knew that Nino was hiding something from him. He just didn’t know what, and why.
- Nino… Why me? - Ohno felt like crying, but he couldn’t cry in front of Nino. He felt like he was being abandoned by his best friend without knowing why.
- What about … you? - Nino breathed.
- … It’s only me who don’t know anything - Ohno sighed.
Before he could get an answer from Nino, Aiba called. Nino was about to say something, he was sure, but stopped. He didn’t say anything more but smiled wearily and asked if they could talk later. Ohno was frustrated, but he didn’t want to force Nino. Nino would tell him when he wanted to, Ohno had always wanted to believe this. He leaned into Nino and hugged him tightly. At least, he could be with Nino like this, feeling his warmth and their bodies together. He could feel Nino tensed in his arms, but then suddenly, he relaxed. Ohno wished that he could embrace Nino like this forever, to protect him from all the sadness and torture that he was bearing. He wanted Nino to be happy, and he wished to be the one to make that happen. It was his secret, but as long as Nino was happy, Ohno was contented.
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Ohno was thinking about it these days.
That, might be he had fallen in love.
He had doubted it before, what that feeling was after all if it wasn’t love?
He had thought he might be in love. And now, it was obvious.
He was in love with Nino. Deeply. Desperately.
And now he wanted nothing but Nino’s love.
It couldn’t happen though. Whenever he thought about it, Ohno felt sad and hopeless. There was no way Nino would love him… Of course, Nino did as a friend, but nothing more. With each passing day, his desire to have physical contact with Nino increased, and while he was scared about it, he still wondered how it would feel like to hold Nino in his arms. It was abnormal and unacceptable. But, after all, Ohno couldn’t ignore his obsession, his need, his want, his wish. He couldn’t stop himself. How could you stop loving someone? It wasn’t easy for him since they met each other everyday, and even though he wanted to keep himself away from Nino, he still couldn’t. Because it would hurt him so much.
Nino seemed notice it too, since Nino sent him a message after he had gone home.
From: Kazu
Subject: How are you?
What’s wrong?
He bit his lips. What could he say? Tell Nino the truth? Nino would definitely feel that this was disgusting… Ohno didn’t want Nino to be scared of him, and keep his distance from him. But the feeling was so strong that it was burning his heart. Ohno didn’t think he could keep this secret from Nino any longer.
From: Ohno
Subject: Re: How are you?
… I think I’m in love.
He hesitantly pressed the send button. What would Nino say? He wondered.
From: Kazu
Subject: Re: Re: How are you?
… It’s a little late. I’m surprised that you didn’t realise it sooner.
Ohno’s heart raced. Nino knew? When did he know? How much did he know? Did he know who was it? Did he know that he was the one…?
From: Ohno
Subject: You know?
How do you know? I haven’t told anyone yet.
And I’ve no intention too, he thought. But he didn’t type that.
From: Kazu
Subject: Re: You know?
Of course I know. And if you intend to tell the rest of Arashi, they have already known too.
Arashi? They knew? What was happening, Ohno frowned. How could it happen that he was the last one who knew that he was in love?
From: Ohno
Subject: No way!
Really? I can’t believe it. I just know that…
From: Nino
Subject: Re: No way!
Yeah, because you’re an idiot. Want to go somewhere with me?
He might really be an idiot. Even though he knew that he would be disappointed, he still kept his grin on his face and he was determined to confess to Nino.
From: Ohno
Subject: Re: Re: No way!
Really? Of course. When would we go?
He replied before he was aware of it. And when it had been sent, he realized that he didn’t know how to confess to Nino. But he couldn’t just take his message back.
From: Kazu
Subject: Re: Re: Re: No way!
I’ll pick you up in 10 minutes. Are you free right now? Let’s go to the place you told me before.
Right now? Right now? Ohno’s mind warned that he was in danger, but he still felt extremely happy. He smiled widely and immediately got up to prepare for the date. He wanted to see Nino, wanted to feel his presence, but he was slightly scared of what might happen. Nino would never pull him away, right? Since they were best friends…?
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Nino greeted him at the threshold with a tired look. Ohno noticed that Nino appeared so gloomy these days. Might it be better to keep all his feelings for Nino for himself?
On the way to the restaurant, Ohno was silent. He couldn’t say anything, but feeling Nino’s presence was enough. Ohno was anxious, since Nino didn’t say anything either. The silence was not awkward, but Ohno himself felt being awkward. He thought he couldn’t, just thinking about telling Nino his feeling made his stomach do somersault. But, he knew he had to…
They entered the restaurant and choose the most private seat, so that they could talk freely. The waiter served them their food and went away. Nino stared at him for a while and then asked him gently, his eyes never left Ohno.
- So, what’s exactly your problem?
Ohno didn’t dare to look at Nino, that he worried Nino could read his mind through his eyes, so he bit his lips nervously and murmured instead.
- I…
Then he couldn’t find anything else to say… I’m in love with you? He couldn’t say that. Ohno didn’t think that it was a good idea to call your best friend to a restaurant and then tell him that you were in love with him.
- Nino, I… - he said miserably - I think… I’m gay.
Ohno didn’t intend to say that, but since it was true, he looked at Nino, waiting for a reaction. Nino seemed frozen at his spot.
- Un… Hai? - Nino breathed. Ohno thought that he could go insane any moment.
- … in love… - Ohno started. He barely breathed now, and his voice was almost inaudiable.
- Yeah… and? - Nino managed to say.
- …with a guy - Ohno finished. He waited for Nino to explode.
But nothing happened. Nino kept silent for a bit before mumbling
- … Really?
- Yes - Ohno raised his head to confirmed what he had said. He needed to tell Nino the truth.
- Ah… so? - Nino kept asking.
- He… doesn’t love me, obviously - Ohno tried to hide his frustration - And… I don’t know what to do now.
Nino didn’t talk for a very long time and Ohno was scared that Nino had left without telling hjm. He raised his had and saw a shocked look on Nino’s face, his lip parted lightly.
Then Ohno felt Nino’s hand on his. He was startled, but the familiar warmth spread through his body calmed Ohno. He wished that Nino would hold his hand like that for a little longer.
- How can I help you, Ohchan? - Nino said finally. Ohno thought that he couldn’t keep this any longer… If he wanted to tell Nino, this was a chance, and if he didn’t take it, who knew he would have any other chance or not.
- Nino, I… -Tears were streaming down his cheeks , but he barely cared. He looked at Nino intensely.
And he did it. He leaned forward towards Nino and placed his lips on Nino’s soft ones. Nino froze. He didn’t react, and Ohno felt like he was a fool. He pulled back and smiled miserably at Nino.
- I’m sorry… I…
- Ohchan… - Nino called his name gently.
- I’m in love with you… - Ohno continued. He looked deeply into Nino’s eyes and tried to convey his feelings to Nino while wishing for Nino to understand, Please don’t push me away, he thougth desperately.
- … Sorry, Nino. I know that this is… so abnormal, that I’m not supposed to… love you. But, I just realised that, I need you… more than anyone else. I miss you more than anyone else, and I want to be with you forever. I just… - Ohno started to cry - … I was lost without you beside me these days...
Before Ohno could finish his sentence, Nino had taken his arms and pulled him into a kiss. Ohno closed his eyes and let Nino kiss him deeply passionately. For the first time after he had dreamt about this for a long time, Nino’s kiss was better than he had expected. He felt Nino’s chest against his, and he listened to his heartbeat while feeling his own heart was beating in the same rhythm.
- You’re an idiot - Nino said between kisses - You’re really, really an idiot…
- Why…? - Ohno breathed.
- I was waiting for this for so long - Nino kissed his forehead - I thought that you’ll never love me… as I do… for a long time.
- Really? - Ohno tried to hide his blush, but Nino lifted his chin and chuckled. Nino loved him? For a long time? Why didn’t he know about it? Well, he barely knew about this kind of thing anyway…
- Yes… - And Nino attacked his lips one more time and Ohno kissed Nino back just as passionately.
Ohno was glad that he had realized it before he lost Nino. He was glad that he had told Nino before he might break Nino’s heart. Now he could feel Nino in his arms, putting around him protectively and peacefully.
And Ohno knew that this was more than enough for him.
To be with Nino, it was the most important thing.
Part 1
Pairing: Ohmiya
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romace
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story.
Summary: Ohno couldn't understand what made Nino different from the others, was he only one of his best friends or Ohno had some feelings toward him?
A/N: This is beta-ed by potatoos, thank you so much <33.
Ohno was in the middle of filming when his phone vibrated. As it wasn’t his turn to be filmed yet, he walked out the studio to read the message which just coming. It was Nino.
From: Kazu
Subject: Are you free?
I have free time tonight. If you want to, we could go to the place you have mentioned before. Just the two of us. Okay?
He smiled at the screen and immediately replied.
From: Ohno
Subject: Re: Are you free?
Of course! I’m free tonight too. Let’s go together then!
From: Kazu
Subject: Re: Re: Are you free?
So I’ll meet you at 8.00 PM, okay? Be sure you’re ready by then, don’t let me wait or I’ll kill you.
From: Ohno
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Are you free?
I won’t. ^^ I missed you so much these days, Nino. See you at 8.
Ohno really meant it. He couldn’t deny that he missed Nino the most, and that he wanted to meet him so much. He wanted to convey his true feelings to Nino, and hoped that the younger man wouldn’t take it as a joke, because Ohno himself never thought it was.
For the rest of the day, the staff was a little surprise to see a happy and active Ohno. However, the director yelled at Ohno to stop smiling in the middle of the scene in which his character was going to kill his enemy.
He finished filming at around 7, and he went home to take a rest before the date. He couldn’t help but grinned shyly whenever he thought about Nino asking him out. This was rare, as Nino always liked to stay at home and play with his video games, and it was hard to drag him out of his home to go out for a drink. Ohno knew that if Nino had to choose between him and the DS, Nino would not hesitate to choose his valuable games, and even though Ohno was disappointed with that thought, he must said that was the Nino he loved
He was almost asleep when his phone vibrated in his pocket. Ohno lazily took it out and looked at the screen which was lightening. It was Nino. Frowning in confusion, he opened the phone.
From: Kazu
Subject: Hontou ni gomen, Riida
They say that the photo shoot has some problems and I need to redo it. I can’t go with you tonight. I’m really sorry, Riida.
Ohno sighed in frustration and tossed his phone on his bed, rolled over onto his back and stared blankly at the ceiling.
Ohno wondered at times that if Nino had to choose between him and work, what would he choose? He knew the answer , but still his heart tightened painfully when thinking about that. He bit his lips. He couldn’t be so selfish. It was work, and Nino had no choice.
That night, Ohno couldn’t sleep. He stared at the window, his mind went blank and he didn’t know what to think anymore.
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Ohno realized that he didn’t know how to deal with Nino anymore. He couldn’t understand the feelings he had for Nino, as they were so different from how he felt for the others. It was strange. He convinced himself many times that Nino was only his best friend, but now he just couldn’t trust himself anymore. Nino was definitely more than just a best friend; he was more special, more close, and more important. Ohno didn’t want to lose Nino, nor did he want to leave him either. He only wanted to stay beside Nino, to feel his warmth and smell his scent. He wanted Nino to be beside him forever, to be the first one he met in the morning, and the last one before he fell asleep.
These thoughts scared Ohno, but he didn’t know why. He didn’t know where the desires come from, but they refused to leave his mind, haunting him everyday until he felt lost and scared and even hated himself having those feelings. What would Nino think if he figured that Ohno harboured those feelings for him? What would Nino feel if he knew that Ohno wanted to hug him so badly, to hold him tight, to smooth his hair, and to make him smile… Would he feel disgusted? Both were guys, and Nino didn’t seem like he was … gay, or something.
Wait, what did he just think?
Wouldn’t this mean he was… gay?
No.
There was no way this could be true. Ohno shook his head violently and took a deep breath. He just was very close to Nino and he wanted the younger man to be happy.
He didn’t love Nino that way.
…Did he?
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The next day, they were filming Arashi no Shukudai kun. Since Ohno did not sleep enough the night before, with those thinking about Nino, now he was more sleepy than ever. He couldn’t concentrate on the conversation, and only managed to laugh when Nino said something really funny. He leaned in closer to Nino, but he felt Nino tensed and thus, he immediately backed away a little. He wondered if Nino was annoyed with him. More than that, Nino refused to make eyes contact with him for the whole day. Whenever their eyes met, Nino would fake a smile and turn away to do something else, ignored Ohno’s gaze at his back with disappointed eyes. The other three sometimes shot Nino a worried look, as if they knew something. Ohno recognized that Nino had kept his secret from only him, and he felt his heart hurting, and he was so lonely and scared. Ohno didn’t want Nino to leave him, but what could he do? It seemed as though Nino had already left him.
The filming ended, and Ohno sighed in relief. It was a busy day for him and he was exhausted, so he returned to the greenroom to take a rest before the next shooting began. On his way in, Ohno spotted Nino slipping out of the room quietly. It was unusual, as Nino never left alone like that. He would always dragg Ohno, or Aiba, or Jun to come back together.
Ohno decided to follow Nino, thinking that they could finally have a private time, just the two of them and might be he could ask him something, which he had wanted to know for a long time. He wanted to ask Nino if he would tell him something, anything before he went insane with all the self-conflicts in his mind.
Ohno caught up to Nino when the younger man was waiting for the elevator, staring into space that he didn’t notice Ohno was approaching. He put a hand on Nino’s shoulder to catch his attention.
Nino tensed under his touch, and it made Ohno retract his hand immediately. The skin which had made contact with Nino’s shoulder was now burning his palm. Nino turned back and looked at him ,confused. Ohno asked quietly.
- Where are you going?
- Un… Bathroom? - Nino hesitated. Ohno was tired of Nino’s excuses. He wanted to know the truth. Just what did he do wrong?
- You’re acting strange all day. What’s wrong? - He demanded.
- No…nothing. I just was… tired, and…
- You always use being tired as an excuse - Ohno frowned - You never tell me the truth. Why do you try to hide it?
Ohno knew that Nino was hiding something from him. He just didn’t know what, and why.
- Nino… Why me? - Ohno felt like crying, but he couldn’t cry in front of Nino. He felt like he was being abandoned by his best friend without knowing why.
- What about … you? - Nino breathed.
- … It’s only me who don’t know anything - Ohno sighed.
Before he could get an answer from Nino, Aiba called. Nino was about to say something, he was sure, but stopped. He didn’t say anything more but smiled wearily and asked if they could talk later. Ohno was frustrated, but he didn’t want to force Nino. Nino would tell him when he wanted to, Ohno had always wanted to believe this. He leaned into Nino and hugged him tightly. At least, he could be with Nino like this, feeling his warmth and their bodies together. He could feel Nino tensed in his arms, but then suddenly, he relaxed. Ohno wished that he could embrace Nino like this forever, to protect him from all the sadness and torture that he was bearing. He wanted Nino to be happy, and he wished to be the one to make that happen. It was his secret, but as long as Nino was happy, Ohno was contented.
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Ohno was thinking about it these days.
That, might be he had fallen in love.
He had doubted it before, what that feeling was after all if it wasn’t love?
He had thought he might be in love. And now, it was obvious.
He was in love with Nino. Deeply. Desperately.
And now he wanted nothing but Nino’s love.
It couldn’t happen though. Whenever he thought about it, Ohno felt sad and hopeless. There was no way Nino would love him… Of course, Nino did as a friend, but nothing more. With each passing day, his desire to have physical contact with Nino increased, and while he was scared about it, he still wondered how it would feel like to hold Nino in his arms. It was abnormal and unacceptable. But, after all, Ohno couldn’t ignore his obsession, his need, his want, his wish. He couldn’t stop himself. How could you stop loving someone? It wasn’t easy for him since they met each other everyday, and even though he wanted to keep himself away from Nino, he still couldn’t. Because it would hurt him so much.
Nino seemed notice it too, since Nino sent him a message after he had gone home.
From: Kazu
Subject: How are you?
What’s wrong?
He bit his lips. What could he say? Tell Nino the truth? Nino would definitely feel that this was disgusting… Ohno didn’t want Nino to be scared of him, and keep his distance from him. But the feeling was so strong that it was burning his heart. Ohno didn’t think he could keep this secret from Nino any longer.
From: Ohno
Subject: Re: How are you?
… I think I’m in love.
He hesitantly pressed the send button. What would Nino say? He wondered.
From: Kazu
Subject: Re: Re: How are you?
… It’s a little late. I’m surprised that you didn’t realise it sooner.
Ohno’s heart raced. Nino knew? When did he know? How much did he know? Did he know who was it? Did he know that he was the one…?
From: Ohno
Subject: You know?
How do you know? I haven’t told anyone yet.
And I’ve no intention too, he thought. But he didn’t type that.
From: Kazu
Subject: Re: You know?
Of course I know. And if you intend to tell the rest of Arashi, they have already known too.
Arashi? They knew? What was happening, Ohno frowned. How could it happen that he was the last one who knew that he was in love?
From: Ohno
Subject: No way!
Really? I can’t believe it. I just know that…
From: Nino
Subject: Re: No way!
Yeah, because you’re an idiot. Want to go somewhere with me?
He might really be an idiot. Even though he knew that he would be disappointed, he still kept his grin on his face and he was determined to confess to Nino.
From: Ohno
Subject: Re: Re: No way!
Really? Of course. When would we go?
He replied before he was aware of it. And when it had been sent, he realized that he didn’t know how to confess to Nino. But he couldn’t just take his message back.
From: Kazu
Subject: Re: Re: Re: No way!
I’ll pick you up in 10 minutes. Are you free right now? Let’s go to the place you told me before.
Right now? Right now? Ohno’s mind warned that he was in danger, but he still felt extremely happy. He smiled widely and immediately got up to prepare for the date. He wanted to see Nino, wanted to feel his presence, but he was slightly scared of what might happen. Nino would never pull him away, right? Since they were best friends…?
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Nino greeted him at the threshold with a tired look. Ohno noticed that Nino appeared so gloomy these days. Might it be better to keep all his feelings for Nino for himself?
On the way to the restaurant, Ohno was silent. He couldn’t say anything, but feeling Nino’s presence was enough. Ohno was anxious, since Nino didn’t say anything either. The silence was not awkward, but Ohno himself felt being awkward. He thought he couldn’t, just thinking about telling Nino his feeling made his stomach do somersault. But, he knew he had to…
They entered the restaurant and choose the most private seat, so that they could talk freely. The waiter served them their food and went away. Nino stared at him for a while and then asked him gently, his eyes never left Ohno.
- So, what’s exactly your problem?
Ohno didn’t dare to look at Nino, that he worried Nino could read his mind through his eyes, so he bit his lips nervously and murmured instead.
- I…
Then he couldn’t find anything else to say… I’m in love with you? He couldn’t say that. Ohno didn’t think that it was a good idea to call your best friend to a restaurant and then tell him that you were in love with him.
- Nino, I… - he said miserably - I think… I’m gay.
Ohno didn’t intend to say that, but since it was true, he looked at Nino, waiting for a reaction. Nino seemed frozen at his spot.
- Un… Hai? - Nino breathed. Ohno thought that he could go insane any moment.
- … in love… - Ohno started. He barely breathed now, and his voice was almost inaudiable.
- Yeah… and? - Nino managed to say.
- …with a guy - Ohno finished. He waited for Nino to explode.
But nothing happened. Nino kept silent for a bit before mumbling
- … Really?
- Yes - Ohno raised his head to confirmed what he had said. He needed to tell Nino the truth.
- Ah… so? - Nino kept asking.
- He… doesn’t love me, obviously - Ohno tried to hide his frustration - And… I don’t know what to do now.
Nino didn’t talk for a very long time and Ohno was scared that Nino had left without telling hjm. He raised his had and saw a shocked look on Nino’s face, his lip parted lightly.
Then Ohno felt Nino’s hand on his. He was startled, but the familiar warmth spread through his body calmed Ohno. He wished that Nino would hold his hand like that for a little longer.
- How can I help you, Ohchan? - Nino said finally. Ohno thought that he couldn’t keep this any longer… If he wanted to tell Nino, this was a chance, and if he didn’t take it, who knew he would have any other chance or not.
- Nino, I… -Tears were streaming down his cheeks , but he barely cared. He looked at Nino intensely.
And he did it. He leaned forward towards Nino and placed his lips on Nino’s soft ones. Nino froze. He didn’t react, and Ohno felt like he was a fool. He pulled back and smiled miserably at Nino.
- I’m sorry… I…
- Ohchan… - Nino called his name gently.
- I’m in love with you… - Ohno continued. He looked deeply into Nino’s eyes and tried to convey his feelings to Nino while wishing for Nino to understand, Please don’t push me away, he thougth desperately.
- … Sorry, Nino. I know that this is… so abnormal, that I’m not supposed to… love you. But, I just realised that, I need you… more than anyone else. I miss you more than anyone else, and I want to be with you forever. I just… - Ohno started to cry - … I was lost without you beside me these days...
Before Ohno could finish his sentence, Nino had taken his arms and pulled him into a kiss. Ohno closed his eyes and let Nino kiss him deeply passionately. For the first time after he had dreamt about this for a long time, Nino’s kiss was better than he had expected. He felt Nino’s chest against his, and he listened to his heartbeat while feeling his own heart was beating in the same rhythm.
- You’re an idiot - Nino said between kisses - You’re really, really an idiot…
- Why…? - Ohno breathed.
- I was waiting for this for so long - Nino kissed his forehead - I thought that you’ll never love me… as I do… for a long time.
- Really? - Ohno tried to hide his blush, but Nino lifted his chin and chuckled. Nino loved him? For a long time? Why didn’t he know about it? Well, he barely knew about this kind of thing anyway…
- Yes… - And Nino attacked his lips one more time and Ohno kissed Nino back just as passionately.
Ohno was glad that he had realized it before he lost Nino. He was glad that he had told Nino before he might break Nino’s heart. Now he could feel Nino in his arms, putting around him protectively and peacefully.
And Ohno knew that this was more than enough for him.
To be with Nino, it was the most important thing.
Part 1