[Multi-chapter] Two stories (11/27)
Title: Two stories (11/27)
Pairing: Ohmiya, Sakuraiba, Juntoshi (one-side), ?
Rating: PG-13/R?
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance, Mystery
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story.
Summary: Two stories of two individuals, but it was only one.
Unbeta-ed, so sorry for my mistakes. I'm very very thankful if someone helps me point them out ^^~
A/N: First of all, I want to say thank you. There are messages of you guys asking me when I will update this story and if I would continue this one at all. I'm very thankful that you still remember and still want to read the rest of this story :) That helps me find back my courage to continue updating. Because, well, university took over and I didn't feel quite confident with this, so, I couldn't bring myself to get it updated. I'm very sorry for making you guys waiting for too long. I'll update the rest of this story frequently. It's finished. There will be twists here and there, and you may find this quite different from the rest of my stories.
So... I hope you will enjoy it until the end :)
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Chapter 11: Your pain.
“Nino, do you feel any better?” Ohno asked gently and carefully not to mention the accident. They were sitting on their bed, with Ohno insisting Nino to lie down and take a good sleep, but Nino refused. The younger man kept staring at the floor, his face pale and blank. Ohno sighed.
It was still hard for him to get the situation. When that Ninomiya told him that Nino was just his clone, there was something in that person’s eyes telling him that he wasn’t lying. And Ohno knew he didn’t. But that fact had nothing to do with his love for Nino, since he didn’t love his name but his entire being.
He was only worried that Nino wouldn’t believe him. The hurt in Nino’s eyes was becoming unbearable, and Ohno found it hard to let him be like that any longer. He shook Nino’s shoulder quietly, and when Nino didn’t react, he kissed the younger man fully on his lips.
It was shock at first, for Nino, and Ohno could feel it by the way Nino frozen. But then Nino reacted, he pushed Ohno away hastily, refused to let the other man get any further. Ohno parted, rather hesitantly, and with that Nino turned to look at him, his eyes were scared and as if he was pleading, please, please, please, Ohno could almost feel tears on his own eyes too.
“Nino, please…” Ohno bit his lips, his hand came to trail on Nino’s cheek, and Nino once again back away. Ohno could see that Nino was trying to push him away, trying to hide, trying to protect himself from whatever it could be that had hurt him that much.
“Ohchan…” Nino cried, his voice trembling “Don’t… I… I can’t stand it…”
“Why?” Ohno asked, his sad eyes staring into Nino’s, his hand didn’t leave his cheek.
“No, please, just…” Nino pleaded, his voice lowered until all Ohno could hear was some incoherent words from him.
“Nino…” Ohno hugged Nino tightly. Nino’s chin put on his shoulder, Nino’s tears wet his shirt. “Don’t be like this. Everything is going to be okay.”
“No… Nothing can be okay,” Nino shook his hear tiredly “Nothing can be…”
“Why?” Ohno asked. Nino leaned heavily onto Ohno’s shoulder, his voice muffled as he tried to say.
“He would never let me go…” Nino cried “He would never leave me alone…”
“That Ninomiya?” Ohno tried to keep his voice as soft as possible. He didn’t want to scare Nino more than he already was.
Nino nodded.
“Why does he do that, anyway?” Ohno asked thoughtfully.
“… He said he needed me…” Nino started to tremble again “He said because he needed me, he made me.”
“Nino…” Ohno tried to keep his mind composed “…What exactly did he do to you?”
Nino didn’t answer for a while as silence filled around them. Ohno could hear Nino’s heavy breath near his ears, and he started to worry that he had asked the wrong question. Maybe Nino hadn’t been okay enough to answer such a question, and he was about to wipe it off before he heard Nino’s whisper.
“Will you hate me after this, Ohchan?” Nino’s voice wavered.
“No, of course not!” Ohno immediately answered “I would never hate you!”
“You will…” Nino shook his head tiredly, as if he had had enough. He leaned back and looked anywhere but Ohno’s face, his tears had stopped on his face. And he looked so fragile that Ohno only want to hug him and telling him that no, you don’t need to talk about it if you don’t want to.
But Nino started to speak again.
“He’s… kind of, my master.” Nino said with a hoarse voice. Ohno didn’t know since when Nino had remembered, but it was barely his priority right now.
“He made me from his cell… I overheard that he told his servant that because he loved only himself…”
“It’s sick…” Ohno breathed. Nino only smiled slightly and continued.
“And… he kept me beside him… Whenever he felt like it, he would…” Nino’s voice lowered as the pain was once again pouring back in his mind, and it became unbearable with each word he was saying.
And the fact hit Ohno hard on his face when finally his brain caught up with what Nino was trying to say. He gasped in disbelief when he saw Nino’s tear rolling down again, and without hesitance he pulled Nino into a tight embrace.
“Oh, no, Nino, no…”
“Yes, it happened,” Nino closed his eyes, remembered the pain creeping into his body, the pain that he couldn’t endure it anymore, the pain that he would never want to feel anymore. “…He raped me.”
The last word seemed drain out every courage in Nino, so he dropped his head on Ohno’s shoulder, unable to hold back his tears anymore. Ohno could never be more shocked than this, when it hit him right in his heart. It was the hurt Nino was bearing, the pain he had been through that tore Ohno’s heart apart. It was the misery Nino had experience, the loneliness, the fear, everything that Nino had gone through that wrenched Ohno’s heart, made his head dizzy and his mind full of anger he had never felt before. He would never forgive that person, who had treated Nino like a slave, who had hurt Nino that badly. Ohno’s body tensed up with the fury he was feeling, and his hold on Nino tightened, as a way to convey his feeling to the younger man.
But Nino seemed take the anger as if it was for him.
He pushed away immediately, struggled to loosen Ohno’s arms around him, his fears rolled down as he knew this was the end. His eyes reddened from crying, and thinking that Ohno couldn’t accept it hurt him even more than when he was crying alone.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” Nino cried desperately, trying to free himself from Ohno. But Ohno refused to let Nino go, he hold on Nino even tighter. His tears were also rolling down his cheeks, and hearing Nino’s sorry just made his heart shattered.
“No, Nino, no!” Ohno kept Nino still, until the other man gave up struggling and just crying silently in his hold “No, it’s not your fault! It’s Ninomiya’s fault! You don’t need to be sorry!!!”
Like the world around him was pushed out of its usual axis and now it was spinning around him, everything except Nino turned off from his sight. He closed his eyes, trying to subside the anger together with the grief for Nino’s misery, trying to pull himself together. He needed to stay calm. He needed to be Nino’s support. He needed to protect Nino from all that dirtiness.
“Nino… I’ll protect you.” Ohno looked deeply into Nino’s eyes, trying to convey his feeling to Nino. “I won’t let it happen to you again.”
Nino’s eyes were still full of fear, but he nodded. Being hold by Ohno like this was the best thing he had experienced in his life, since he had always been treated badly.
They stayed like that until Nino’s fear subside, and Ohno hugged Nino even tighter that night, kissing his forehead and his nose, pulled their body close until there was no gap between them, put his arm under Nino’s head… He did everything he could to make Nino feel better, because he knew that the pain would still claw Nino’s heart; the pain was still shadowing him like a ghost, just like the scars Ninomiya had left on his chest wouldn’t fade away…
Ohno wished he could do something for Nino, anything that could make Nino feel better than this.
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Pairing: Ohmiya, Sakuraiba, Juntoshi (one-side), ?
Rating: PG-13/R?
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance, Mystery
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story.
Summary: Two stories of two individuals, but it was only one.
Unbeta-ed, so sorry for my mistakes. I'm very very thankful if someone helps me point them out ^^~
A/N: First of all, I want to say thank you. There are messages of you guys asking me when I will update this story and if I would continue this one at all. I'm very thankful that you still remember and still want to read the rest of this story :) That helps me find back my courage to continue updating. Because, well, university took over and I didn't feel quite confident with this, so, I couldn't bring myself to get it updated. I'm very sorry for making you guys waiting for too long. I'll update the rest of this story frequently. It's finished. There will be twists here and there, and you may find this quite different from the rest of my stories.
So... I hope you will enjoy it until the end :)
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Chapter 11: Your pain.
“Nino, do you feel any better?” Ohno asked gently and carefully not to mention the accident. They were sitting on their bed, with Ohno insisting Nino to lie down and take a good sleep, but Nino refused. The younger man kept staring at the floor, his face pale and blank. Ohno sighed.
It was still hard for him to get the situation. When that Ninomiya told him that Nino was just his clone, there was something in that person’s eyes telling him that he wasn’t lying. And Ohno knew he didn’t. But that fact had nothing to do with his love for Nino, since he didn’t love his name but his entire being.
He was only worried that Nino wouldn’t believe him. The hurt in Nino’s eyes was becoming unbearable, and Ohno found it hard to let him be like that any longer. He shook Nino’s shoulder quietly, and when Nino didn’t react, he kissed the younger man fully on his lips.
It was shock at first, for Nino, and Ohno could feel it by the way Nino frozen. But then Nino reacted, he pushed Ohno away hastily, refused to let the other man get any further. Ohno parted, rather hesitantly, and with that Nino turned to look at him, his eyes were scared and as if he was pleading, please, please, please, Ohno could almost feel tears on his own eyes too.
“Nino, please…” Ohno bit his lips, his hand came to trail on Nino’s cheek, and Nino once again back away. Ohno could see that Nino was trying to push him away, trying to hide, trying to protect himself from whatever it could be that had hurt him that much.
“Ohchan…” Nino cried, his voice trembling “Don’t… I… I can’t stand it…”
“Why?” Ohno asked, his sad eyes staring into Nino’s, his hand didn’t leave his cheek.
“No, please, just…” Nino pleaded, his voice lowered until all Ohno could hear was some incoherent words from him.
“Nino…” Ohno hugged Nino tightly. Nino’s chin put on his shoulder, Nino’s tears wet his shirt. “Don’t be like this. Everything is going to be okay.”
“No… Nothing can be okay,” Nino shook his hear tiredly “Nothing can be…”
“Why?” Ohno asked. Nino leaned heavily onto Ohno’s shoulder, his voice muffled as he tried to say.
“He would never let me go…” Nino cried “He would never leave me alone…”
“That Ninomiya?” Ohno tried to keep his voice as soft as possible. He didn’t want to scare Nino more than he already was.
Nino nodded.
“Why does he do that, anyway?” Ohno asked thoughtfully.
“… He said he needed me…” Nino started to tremble again “He said because he needed me, he made me.”
“Nino…” Ohno tried to keep his mind composed “…What exactly did he do to you?”
Nino didn’t answer for a while as silence filled around them. Ohno could hear Nino’s heavy breath near his ears, and he started to worry that he had asked the wrong question. Maybe Nino hadn’t been okay enough to answer such a question, and he was about to wipe it off before he heard Nino’s whisper.
“Will you hate me after this, Ohchan?” Nino’s voice wavered.
“No, of course not!” Ohno immediately answered “I would never hate you!”
“You will…” Nino shook his head tiredly, as if he had had enough. He leaned back and looked anywhere but Ohno’s face, his tears had stopped on his face. And he looked so fragile that Ohno only want to hug him and telling him that no, you don’t need to talk about it if you don’t want to.
But Nino started to speak again.
“He’s… kind of, my master.” Nino said with a hoarse voice. Ohno didn’t know since when Nino had remembered, but it was barely his priority right now.
“He made me from his cell… I overheard that he told his servant that because he loved only himself…”
“It’s sick…” Ohno breathed. Nino only smiled slightly and continued.
“And… he kept me beside him… Whenever he felt like it, he would…” Nino’s voice lowered as the pain was once again pouring back in his mind, and it became unbearable with each word he was saying.
And the fact hit Ohno hard on his face when finally his brain caught up with what Nino was trying to say. He gasped in disbelief when he saw Nino’s tear rolling down again, and without hesitance he pulled Nino into a tight embrace.
“Oh, no, Nino, no…”
“Yes, it happened,” Nino closed his eyes, remembered the pain creeping into his body, the pain that he couldn’t endure it anymore, the pain that he would never want to feel anymore. “…He raped me.”
The last word seemed drain out every courage in Nino, so he dropped his head on Ohno’s shoulder, unable to hold back his tears anymore. Ohno could never be more shocked than this, when it hit him right in his heart. It was the hurt Nino was bearing, the pain he had been through that tore Ohno’s heart apart. It was the misery Nino had experience, the loneliness, the fear, everything that Nino had gone through that wrenched Ohno’s heart, made his head dizzy and his mind full of anger he had never felt before. He would never forgive that person, who had treated Nino like a slave, who had hurt Nino that badly. Ohno’s body tensed up with the fury he was feeling, and his hold on Nino tightened, as a way to convey his feeling to the younger man.
But Nino seemed take the anger as if it was for him.
He pushed away immediately, struggled to loosen Ohno’s arms around him, his fears rolled down as he knew this was the end. His eyes reddened from crying, and thinking that Ohno couldn’t accept it hurt him even more than when he was crying alone.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” Nino cried desperately, trying to free himself from Ohno. But Ohno refused to let Nino go, he hold on Nino even tighter. His tears were also rolling down his cheeks, and hearing Nino’s sorry just made his heart shattered.
“No, Nino, no!” Ohno kept Nino still, until the other man gave up struggling and just crying silently in his hold “No, it’s not your fault! It’s Ninomiya’s fault! You don’t need to be sorry!!!”
Like the world around him was pushed out of its usual axis and now it was spinning around him, everything except Nino turned off from his sight. He closed his eyes, trying to subside the anger together with the grief for Nino’s misery, trying to pull himself together. He needed to stay calm. He needed to be Nino’s support. He needed to protect Nino from all that dirtiness.
“Nino… I’ll protect you.” Ohno looked deeply into Nino’s eyes, trying to convey his feeling to Nino. “I won’t let it happen to you again.”
Nino’s eyes were still full of fear, but he nodded. Being hold by Ohno like this was the best thing he had experienced in his life, since he had always been treated badly.
They stayed like that until Nino’s fear subside, and Ohno hugged Nino even tighter that night, kissing his forehead and his nose, pulled their body close until there was no gap between them, put his arm under Nino’s head… He did everything he could to make Nino feel better, because he knew that the pain would still claw Nino’s heart; the pain was still shadowing him like a ghost, just like the scars Ninomiya had left on his chest wouldn’t fade away…
Ohno wished he could do something for Nino, anything that could make Nino feel better than this.
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