A random flashback
So today I had a random thought.
I thought about the time we were having dinner at Aston's. No, not the second time where I made you cry. The first time, where I was still pretty much the same idiot anyway.
It was a good dinner, then my dad called to give me a ride, 'cos I had to get home a lil' earlier than usual that night. BUT I FAILED to mention it to you ahead of time when we arranged to meet...so towards the end of dinner, I suddenly told you that I had to leave pretty soon, which was basically....pretty ABRUPT. Like a "I AM SUCH A JERK" abrupt....just like that. How rude of me. seriously. The more I think about it now, the more I dislike myself that night..and perhaps now still. You know things like that...they keep you thinking...and also thinking about all the others lessons I learned from being with you.
You had planned ahead, giving yourself an allowance of time to accompany me home, then get home in time yourself. You always did sweet, thoughtful things like these. But I was too blind to see. SO SO BLIND.
Today I also saw a quote from a friend's page - Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about.
Needless to say, it was another (deserving) slap in the face.
Indeed. In my 22 years of living...I wish I had learned that earlier.
One lesson reminded, and another lesson learned today. I really like today. in a sad kinda way.
I thought about the time we were having dinner at Aston's. No, not the second time where I made you cry. The first time, where I was still pretty much the same idiot anyway.
It was a good dinner, then my dad called to give me a ride, 'cos I had to get home a lil' earlier than usual that night. BUT I FAILED to mention it to you ahead of time when we arranged to meet...so towards the end of dinner, I suddenly told you that I had to leave pretty soon, which was basically....pretty ABRUPT. Like a "I AM SUCH A JERK" abrupt....just like that. How rude of me. seriously. The more I think about it now, the more I dislike myself that night..and perhaps now still. You know things like that...they keep you thinking...and also thinking about all the others lessons I learned from being with you.
You had planned ahead, giving yourself an allowance of time to accompany me home, then get home in time yourself. You always did sweet, thoughtful things like these. But I was too blind to see. SO SO BLIND.
Today I also saw a quote from a friend's page - Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about.
Needless to say, it was another (deserving) slap in the face.
Indeed. In my 22 years of living...I wish I had learned that earlier.
One lesson reminded, and another lesson learned today. I really like today. in a sad kinda way.