a few thoughts
sometimes i feel like my life is tailor made to make me angry and increasingly unhappy in such a manner that I cannot help but smile about it to myself.
of course, the smile lasts about 3 seconds.
then i go back to mentally throwing imaginary vases against an imaginary wall inside my head.
on a good note, i am most productive and creative when i am unhappy, and i think i have a dynamite idea for a new film. i'm not saying much about it, but it's something i want to film quickly next month. it all seems like it will come together really quick, unlike my other projects, and ironically i think this might be my best work formulating right now, and it comes right from my misery. i'm actually kind of hesitant to make it because i feel it's deeply personal, but i cannot help but think it would be theraputic, and in the long run, probably the most emotional for an audience since i feel so close to the subject matter.
i was such a good student today. i read for over 4 hours altogether. (maybe even 5). i'm really trying to change my studying ways this week, so i think i'll be able to keep it up. i gots a good start ats least. ; )
oh, yeah, and i'm becoming very intolerant of people who do not know a lot about film lately who discuss film as if they do. because i am learning so much this semester it's starting to set me vastly, and i mean vastly, apart from people who, basically, are not learning about it. but, that is to be expected of any field you are learning about. i think it's more pronounced for the film field because film is something people feel they can pass judgement on, and they can determine if it is 'good' or 'bad'. "they" believe it is an opinion. but they are wrong. you can fundamentally determine whether a film is well made or not well made by the components that make it up, and it's not just about acting or directing or other things people "think" they can critique. it is about learning the theory behind it, all the great thinkers and writers about cinema that have worked so hard to break the artform down and reconstruct it through different points of view and analyzation over the last century film has existed. to be knowingly oblivious to that is to be disappointingly disrespectful to the medium. how presumptuous is it for the common audience to pass citique on an art that so many people really know nothing about? it makes me sad for them and teaches me to value conversation with people who do know what they are talking about, and those guys are few and far in between.
hmm...
speaking of learning the medium, i do have to read more for film criticism...
g2g
of course, the smile lasts about 3 seconds.
then i go back to mentally throwing imaginary vases against an imaginary wall inside my head.
on a good note, i am most productive and creative when i am unhappy, and i think i have a dynamite idea for a new film. i'm not saying much about it, but it's something i want to film quickly next month. it all seems like it will come together really quick, unlike my other projects, and ironically i think this might be my best work formulating right now, and it comes right from my misery. i'm actually kind of hesitant to make it because i feel it's deeply personal, but i cannot help but think it would be theraputic, and in the long run, probably the most emotional for an audience since i feel so close to the subject matter.
i was such a good student today. i read for over 4 hours altogether. (maybe even 5). i'm really trying to change my studying ways this week, so i think i'll be able to keep it up. i gots a good start ats least. ; )
oh, yeah, and i'm becoming very intolerant of people who do not know a lot about film lately who discuss film as if they do. because i am learning so much this semester it's starting to set me vastly, and i mean vastly, apart from people who, basically, are not learning about it. but, that is to be expected of any field you are learning about. i think it's more pronounced for the film field because film is something people feel they can pass judgement on, and they can determine if it is 'good' or 'bad'. "they" believe it is an opinion. but they are wrong. you can fundamentally determine whether a film is well made or not well made by the components that make it up, and it's not just about acting or directing or other things people "think" they can critique. it is about learning the theory behind it, all the great thinkers and writers about cinema that have worked so hard to break the artform down and reconstruct it through different points of view and analyzation over the last century film has existed. to be knowingly oblivious to that is to be disappointingly disrespectful to the medium. how presumptuous is it for the common audience to pass citique on an art that so many people really know nothing about? it makes me sad for them and teaches me to value conversation with people who do know what they are talking about, and those guys are few and far in between.
hmm...
speaking of learning the medium, i do have to read more for film criticism...
g2g