Green Room - Week 19 - Day 3

[clauderainsrm]

I came up with something to post this morning on Facebook, but I was reluctant, just because I really don't want to filter it, and I know there would be some off-topic nonsense that I don't have the time today to monitor

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[kathrynrose]

What are *you* OK with sharing here, that you might be reluctant to share elsewhere?

Many, many things.

Also first. I never say that elsewhere.

[xo_kizzy_xo]

I think I've shared more of myself in many different ways via Idol than I ever have IRL or elsewhere online, my own LJ excepted.

I've noticed a difference now vs. then when I'm playing.

Then: I laid bare my soul, no holds barred. A lot of it was fueled by what was happening IRL...when the IRL stuff started evaporating, I noticed my writing gradually becoming less emotionally charged in that it was still charged, but it wasn't running willy-nilly all over the place.

Now: I still lay bare my soul in some ways but it's nowhere near as emotionally charged. For better or worse I'm more conscious of framing, phrasing, polishing, editing. I don't know if it's a product of Idol-As-It-Is-Now or my own awareness in that should a piece of me-as-Kizzy escape into the world, it can be tied back to RL Me. It's probably a combination of both. I don't like this "consciousness" one bit because it stifles me, which in turn ties into a lot of my own thinky thoughts about me and writing in general.

[adoptedwriter]

It's not on FB yet, but my very sick student died just this morning. He's no longer suffering, and he was, but it's sad. I've never lost a current student before.

On the up side my Duzzy1 (daughter), finished exams w flying colors. It's a bittersweet day.
😢 and 😀

AW

[halfshellvenus]

I'm so sorry about your student, and the pain that his family, friends, and teachers are going through right now. *hugs*

[gratefuladdict]

*hugs*

[kickthehobbit]

I just saw your post. I'm so sorry. :( He sounded like a sweet kid.

[clauderainsrm]

RIP Prince

[kathrynrose]

damn

[bleodswean]

Really really saddened by this. Such an amazing individual.

[adoptedwriter]

Prince too! Damnit!