Here we go
I finished college. Funny how those three words seemed so important a few years ago, but now its just a drop in the bucket of life. One less thing on my plate- and I'll admit, I already miss it. I miss deadlines and expectations and schedules and school friends. Transitioning is weird but good and I'm happy to dedicate all of myself to this new phase..
This new phase represents a lot of things. I'm in love, first of all. I list that first because it is overwhelmingly the most important part of my life right now. Alex is the man I always dreamed existed, but never really believed I would ever find.. and I didn't "find" him - I stumbled across him randomly at a time when I had chosen to nix all chances of a relationship with anybody from Pensacola, Florida. A time when I had one week left of my final semester of college and five weeks to wait before a monthlong trip to Europe... but I never banked on meeting anybody like him.
How do you describe somebody whom you love so entirely? Adjectives don't seem to suffice the way I truly see him, but I'll try. He is thoughtful and caring and open and beautiful and brilliant and silly and sexy and loves me just the way I am. He pushes me and pulls me and considers me in whatever he does. We don't have fights "because you were supposed to call and didn't," because he calls. I trust him. I have zero bad feelings about him. He has been completely open with me from the get go about everything I could possibly want to know and regardless of the content, I respect his openness and willingness to make himself uncomfortable in order to make me happy. I see a future with him and have forgotten the feelings I had for anybody else I have ever met- because the feelings I have with him so far exceed anything I have ever experienced. If there is such a thing as pure, selfless love, or love the way Marcel describes it as subjective, I believe I have found it. I want more for Alex than I have ever wanted for myself. I love nothing so much as I love to make him happy. I appreciate him for everything he does and cherish every moment I get to share with him. I have never felt so loved, so beautiful, so respected, so complete in all of my life and plan on sustaining this relationship as long as I possibly can.
Another item of importance: mi madre. She's making moves and thinking forward and I'm proud of her, we just have to get her over this hump so she can find happiness again. We are moving into my house next week and I'm excited for her to have projects to work on. I want her to make that house hers and I want to find her the best puppy ever.
Lastly, and it is important to note the order of these items, is my writing. I've been writing and writing but not really producing anything significant so I took a couple of weeks off, and I miss it. So I'm jumping back in again and I think I'm going to send a few things out next month so we'll see if I can get published, after all.
That's all for now.
This new phase represents a lot of things. I'm in love, first of all. I list that first because it is overwhelmingly the most important part of my life right now. Alex is the man I always dreamed existed, but never really believed I would ever find.. and I didn't "find" him - I stumbled across him randomly at a time when I had chosen to nix all chances of a relationship with anybody from Pensacola, Florida. A time when I had one week left of my final semester of college and five weeks to wait before a monthlong trip to Europe... but I never banked on meeting anybody like him.
How do you describe somebody whom you love so entirely? Adjectives don't seem to suffice the way I truly see him, but I'll try. He is thoughtful and caring and open and beautiful and brilliant and silly and sexy and loves me just the way I am. He pushes me and pulls me and considers me in whatever he does. We don't have fights "because you were supposed to call and didn't," because he calls. I trust him. I have zero bad feelings about him. He has been completely open with me from the get go about everything I could possibly want to know and regardless of the content, I respect his openness and willingness to make himself uncomfortable in order to make me happy. I see a future with him and have forgotten the feelings I had for anybody else I have ever met- because the feelings I have with him so far exceed anything I have ever experienced. If there is such a thing as pure, selfless love, or love the way Marcel describes it as subjective, I believe I have found it. I want more for Alex than I have ever wanted for myself. I love nothing so much as I love to make him happy. I appreciate him for everything he does and cherish every moment I get to share with him. I have never felt so loved, so beautiful, so respected, so complete in all of my life and plan on sustaining this relationship as long as I possibly can.
Another item of importance: mi madre. She's making moves and thinking forward and I'm proud of her, we just have to get her over this hump so she can find happiness again. We are moving into my house next week and I'm excited for her to have projects to work on. I want her to make that house hers and I want to find her the best puppy ever.
Lastly, and it is important to note the order of these items, is my writing. I've been writing and writing but not really producing anything significant so I took a couple of weeks off, and I miss it. So I'm jumping back in again and I think I'm going to send a few things out next month so we'll see if I can get published, after all.
That's all for now.