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So as of late ive become depressed...and if uve even hungout with me as of late u prolly couldnt tell buttt i really hate who i am and what i do. First off i cant stand being just an average person with no talents.I was decent when it came to hockey but my heart had to be pretty lame. Other than that i have no talents. It doesnt help that im scrawny either. I need motivation in my life to do something great i guess. And being here i guess just doesnt satisfy that. i need to get out of here and start a new life.(except for leaving myles behind because i hangout with him everyday and that makes me happy) I hate that ive only had 1 girlfriend all of my life and that she did what she did to me. I still talk to her to this day and some days it bothers me. I dont understand why i cant be as happy as everyone else is. Also i dont know why i go for girls that are way to good for me. i need to quit doing that cuz all that im doing is setting myself up for a heartbreak and that happens to much. If i told u how many there were in 2005 alone it would be a shocker because it is to me i guess i didnt realize that there was that many. I dont even talk to that many people on a weekly basis.
On another note ive been hanging out with muha a lot lately since both of us are restricted from doing pretty much everything. Its been a lot of fun. We went to tiki bobs one night and ive never been to a club and i CANNOT dance! ask him im definetly the whitest person. I feel really bad for him cuz of the car accident he was in and im glad he survived. Ive lost 8 close people that have made an impact on my life so far this year and i dont think i could take another one. Everyones dying like its the cool thing to do and thats lame. Also i have been hanging out with stacie a lot too. I was scared to at first cuz i didnt know how adam would react but i guess he doesnt mind. he said "let the best man win and congrats to the winner".
even though i dont think she looks at me that way and im cool with that, shes a lot of fun to be around. In fact were going to the wings game on tuesday so that should be awesome!(myles please dont get mad im sorry, we will go to another game i promise!! and i swear i got the last 2 seats that were next to eachother)
Also I was fired from hollister on my second to last day because i said some things that i think was quite funny but not at the time being. I miss of all the people i worked with that i knew from march and im sorry i didnt get to say goodbye to anyone.
Until next time....
On another note ive been hanging out with muha a lot lately since both of us are restricted from doing pretty much everything. Its been a lot of fun. We went to tiki bobs one night and ive never been to a club and i CANNOT dance! ask him im definetly the whitest person. I feel really bad for him cuz of the car accident he was in and im glad he survived. Ive lost 8 close people that have made an impact on my life so far this year and i dont think i could take another one. Everyones dying like its the cool thing to do and thats lame. Also i have been hanging out with stacie a lot too. I was scared to at first cuz i didnt know how adam would react but i guess he doesnt mind. he said "let the best man win and congrats to the winner".
even though i dont think she looks at me that way and im cool with that, shes a lot of fun to be around. In fact were going to the wings game on tuesday so that should be awesome!(myles please dont get mad im sorry, we will go to another game i promise!! and i swear i got the last 2 seats that were next to eachother)
Also I was fired from hollister on my second to last day because i said some things that i think was quite funny but not at the time being. I miss of all the people i worked with that i knew from march and im sorry i didnt get to say goodbye to anyone.
Until next time....