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[there_was_blood]

so here i am watching phantom of the opera....

when i suddenly think to myself....god i wish i could do that....just hide away....away from eveyone....

dont get my wrong i love my life...i love my friends....and i love the way i am....

but sometimes it would seem easier...

it would be easier not to see the people with the things a want..

like a girlfriend....a hobby...a skill...a future...

im scared to graduate...im scared to end up like my dad....im scared for everything thats ahead of me outside of school....

i honestly dont think ill make it.....and when it comes down to it....i know you ....you know me...we have mutual love....but theres no one that could live without me....really....

so for now....fuck college....fuck jobs....fuck ambition.....

lets focus on making nicpon.....into ryan nicpon......

the one you cant live without.....