feeling like shit
so yea i am feeling like shit right now. i am feeling anxious,crushed,angry,unwanted,unimportant,and a whole lot more. last night was a bad night. i got drunk. i cryed a lot. im hurt. a lot of shit happened. i cutted. i screamed. i cryed. im dieing and i dont know what to do. iv been cutting a lot and they are getting deeper and deeper. iv been gainin more and more weight. my g-ma called me fat. wtf oh ok i hae more things to worry about than my weight. i have to worry about my cutting and figure that out. i got to worry about how i wont get in so muh pain to where i go crazy and get sent bak to havenwyck or harbor oaks. i dont know what else to say so im going to go color. yay... the only thing that makes me feel good.