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dear malone,
i know ur in jal right now and u wont be getting this note...but i have a lot to say to you.
first, i really did think i was pregnant and i never contridicted myself.
u wouldnt have gotten custody becuz i wouldnt have had my baby with a person that isnt well
im not saying im well but i am getting much better.
this is my first day out of the hospital and i feel relieved and im taking care of myself. and ur not doing that for urself. ur just fucking up ur life slowly
as for abusing u. that is part of the reason why i went to he hospital. i was suicidal becuz i hurted u. i never ment to hurt u. that was the sick side of me. but u need to relize that no u werent good to me....u lied to me a lot and hurt me to te core. u made me feel like i was worthless and it really changed me. i dont think i can trust guys now from u hurting my. im working on that too.
that was a lil of what i have to say to you.
i rather talk to u on the phone so when u get out of jail i hope u will call me so i can tell u this stuff and go on with my life.
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im sry yall for writing to malone i needed to get some of that out.
well i just got out of harbor oaks.
im taking care of myself
im quiting smoking (maybe)
im eating right
not cutting
while i was there i really learned about myself.
i got coping skills to deal with my anger
i got goals now!
today i am a lil sad but im dealing with it.
i feel calm and doing things to keep myself busy
one thing that makes me sad is i dont have like ne friends now
i think once i get better people will want to be around me
i relized last summer i was a good person
i wasnt sick
im still good person but u know im just not well
ok im going.
i have lots more to say but w/e comment
i know ur in jal right now and u wont be getting this note...but i have a lot to say to you.
first, i really did think i was pregnant and i never contridicted myself.
u wouldnt have gotten custody becuz i wouldnt have had my baby with a person that isnt well
im not saying im well but i am getting much better.
this is my first day out of the hospital and i feel relieved and im taking care of myself. and ur not doing that for urself. ur just fucking up ur life slowly
as for abusing u. that is part of the reason why i went to he hospital. i was suicidal becuz i hurted u. i never ment to hurt u. that was the sick side of me. but u need to relize that no u werent good to me....u lied to me a lot and hurt me to te core. u made me feel like i was worthless and it really changed me. i dont think i can trust guys now from u hurting my. im working on that too.
that was a lil of what i have to say to you.
i rather talk to u on the phone so when u get out of jail i hope u will call me so i can tell u this stuff and go on with my life.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
im sry yall for writing to malone i needed to get some of that out.
well i just got out of harbor oaks.
im taking care of myself
im quiting smoking (maybe)
im eating right
not cutting
while i was there i really learned about myself.
i got coping skills to deal with my anger
i got goals now!
today i am a lil sad but im dealing with it.
i feel calm and doing things to keep myself busy
one thing that makes me sad is i dont have like ne friends now
i think once i get better people will want to be around me
i relized last summer i was a good person
i wasnt sick
im still good person but u know im just not well
ok im going.
i have lots more to say but w/e comment