in the end it doesnt even matter!

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malone,
im sry
u should be more sry for urself
but i am sry
i lost everything
u lost everything
u used me and took advantage of me my family and ur job
u lost eveything
although i am mad and hurt i hope ur life is better with out me
there is a good side of me that isnt sick that us refused to look at
one thing is if u ever need me im there
but i am done gettin hurt

amanda,
same to u i hope ur life is better without me
i am sry about what happened
i didnt mean to hurt u
i am not going to be friends with john nemore
i dont want to hurt u nemore
there is a good side to me
i hope one day u will forgive me
i know u wont trust me
but aleast i hope u forgive me

brett,
u are like every other guy
u lie
i told u not to tell becuz i wanted amanda to hear it from me
i will never trust u
and i know that u dont care
but u r like every guy
i know we are not "friends"
but i was nothing but good to u and talked to u and helped u
and when i askd one thing u went behide my bak
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there is a lot more i need to say to those people i wrote to but i need to talk to them face to face but they r so hurt and mad that they wouldnt let me.

my life is falling apart

i lost everything
1 great friend(amanda) that never hurt me and was always there and i made a mistake and wanst there for her

i am crushed

i feel like i have no one except myself

my parents r there and doing there best but i dont want to

i am trying to take care of myself and i have to do it on my own

ok there is a lot more i have to say but i dont want to type it and it is hard for me to put it in words.

im going

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