so take your empty words, your broken promises..

[there_is_hope]

how sad. he's not anywhere to be found. isn't that kind of interesting since he's supposed to be sleeping? every time i've called him lately he's been "sleeping", and he says "call me back at this time.." and i call him back and he's not there.. it's really starting to get to me, because i constantly want to ask him about it, but every time i do he brings up the trust issue. i trust him and everything but come on, every fucking time i call back he's not there, and he's gone for 12 hours at a time.. what am i supposed to think? honestly. it hurts so bad because he always promises me he's going to do stuff and he never does them. like he promised to call me back, he promised to come down here, he promises and promises and doesn't fulfill, and every time i say "okay tim, you promised.." and every time he says "i know.." and still he breaks them. it's tearing me up inside and i can't even tell him because i know it's just going to make him mad and upset, and when he gets that way he does destructive things, to himself and inannimate objects.. how do you forget to call someone you "love" and you're "always thinking about"? how do you forget to call your girl? i don't understand it, really. and every time the excuse is "oh well i really didn't have control over the situation" whether it's because 'they woke him up and he had to leave right away' or whatever other bullshit excuses he gives me. it's rather rediculous, i'm sick of hearing them too. another thing i'm sick of is how no one in his fucking family can tell him i called when he isn't there.
long distance relationships are such a heartbreak.
bye.
<~3tink.