if i had all the money in the world

[there__there]

ive been feeling really shitty lately. im not completely sure why though. ive been kinda stressed out with everything. im trying to make everyone feel better about their problems when i have problems of my own that i need to take care of. i wish someone could just take me away just for one day so for just that one day, i dont have to worry about anything. that would be nice, but unrealistic. i miss my friends and not having to leave every weekend to watch my sister play softball. i wish our house was ready so we could just move in without having to rent a house for 6 months. i miss public school and i miss being young(er). i hate growing up, i still have a long ways to go and i know this is only the beginning. i miss hating boys and not wanting to be around them cause thats when times were easier. but for once, im not sad cause i dont have a boyfriend cause really, having a boyfriend isnt that great. i wanna have a big slumber party with all the girls and do girl things like paint our nails and watch movies till the break of dawn. i wish i had more time to hang out with my friends and more time to play with my bands. theres so many things that i could wish for but when i think about it, i really have all that i need for right now.

you quit on a quitter and you'll swear it feels like winning
[chelsea]

sorry for all the whining and ranting, i had to vent and this is pretty much the only place i can do that.