How can you move on without the past

[there4ne1nu]

And Again god is teaching me so much. I realize that no matter what anyone says we can move past things but not without the memory burned in our hearts. If we didn't wouldnt we still have racism and another Hitler. But whats worse is thatthey didn't even know the people they hurt, while others do, they claim to love them and then push them down and kick you in the stomack and dont stop until your face turns blue and your eyes turn red, and the blood spews from your mouth. but you get past this and then they are still holding the chord around your neck so if you try to run you choke. Because its bad to run away from the people who hurt you if they are "christian". Colin said a kiss from an enemy is worse than a bruise from a friend.. Probably not Colin. People suck especially to people they are close to and it hurts ten times worse. id rather go on a blind date with a boy who laughed at me in highschool than to hangout with someone everyday only to have them betray you. WHat is wrong with you people?

I swear I cant wait to leave. Did you know there are over 3050 colleges in America. Im not sure but I think this world is alot bigger than I thought and Im almost certain I'll never see Chantal again. WHATEVER. I wish I was back in North Carolina. The certaint of not knowing anything about myself and my life was better than the blow that you get when you think you know something and you dont.

How are we as Human beings supposed to trust anyone when we treat eachother this way?

I need to go away for the summer, Maybe Holly Hill, but at least just a break...