Breathe.
Do not always trust what I see. Ground beneath my feet. Breathe. It is what they taught you, breathe. Works most of time. Touch nearest thing, orient self to present. Come back.
Know what you see is real.
Sometimes easier said than done.
Sometimes things you push away, that have stayed buried. Sometimes they come back.
Know what is real.
Your child is real. Far away, but real. Can't have any part of him sometimes, but he is real.
Woman in your bed, she is real. Warm and real. You love her not wisely but too well, but even if you're an idiot she is still real. Real and solid, despite dream. Will not turn liquid in your hands. Will not turn into anyone else, anything else. Will not pick up phaser, fire it at you, at anyone else. Will not change her face then laugh. Even if should.
Will want to know some day. She will want to know.
Don't tell. To tell is to go back.
Go forward, not back.
Only forward.
Breathe.
And like Lor'Vela, erase the past.
Seems best.
Try to sleep now.
Know what you see is real.
Sometimes easier said than done.
Sometimes things you push away, that have stayed buried. Sometimes they come back.
Know what is real.
Your child is real. Far away, but real. Can't have any part of him sometimes, but he is real.
Woman in your bed, she is real. Warm and real. You love her not wisely but too well, but even if you're an idiot she is still real. Real and solid, despite dream. Will not turn liquid in your hands. Will not turn into anyone else, anything else. Will not pick up phaser, fire it at you, at anyone else. Will not change her face then laugh. Even if should.
Will want to know some day. She will want to know.
Don't tell. To tell is to go back.
Go forward, not back.
Only forward.
Breathe.
And like Lor'Vela, erase the past.
Seems best.
Try to sleep now.