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it's been a contemplative spring break. a self analytical spring break. i pushed myself a little further than i wanted to go in pondering the state of things, and i've come up with some interesting observations.
i have become somewhat unhappy with myself over the past couple of years. specifically, i have not been treating myself well with what i eat, the amount of exercise i get, the therapeutic body treatments that i haven't been doing, the meditation and reflection that so often gets pushed aside. and while we all have our good months and worse months, i've been on a pretty steady decline for a good 2 years. well, i've noticed this pattern as the months go on, but i've been rationalizing my way out of doing anything major about it. i think that i've been afraid to really try to change my habits because i fear that i won't be happy if i don't continue to do what i'm currently doing. well, i don't know what kind of idiot i think that i am, because - duh - i'm not happy now! so what harm could changing do? i guess i just reached critical mass with the unhappiness with current self this week.
i'm going to focus on the positive reinstatement of good habits, rather than the extermination of bad ones. i can bet that the good ones will slowly nudge the bad ones out without much effort.
i hope that my motivation is up to the challenge.
i have become somewhat unhappy with myself over the past couple of years. specifically, i have not been treating myself well with what i eat, the amount of exercise i get, the therapeutic body treatments that i haven't been doing, the meditation and reflection that so often gets pushed aside. and while we all have our good months and worse months, i've been on a pretty steady decline for a good 2 years. well, i've noticed this pattern as the months go on, but i've been rationalizing my way out of doing anything major about it. i think that i've been afraid to really try to change my habits because i fear that i won't be happy if i don't continue to do what i'm currently doing. well, i don't know what kind of idiot i think that i am, because - duh - i'm not happy now! so what harm could changing do? i guess i just reached critical mass with the unhappiness with current self this week.
i'm going to focus on the positive reinstatement of good habits, rather than the extermination of bad ones. i can bet that the good ones will slowly nudge the bad ones out without much effort.
i hope that my motivation is up to the challenge.