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well after speaking to an old friend today, i feel a bit better about myself. not alot. it wasnt a miracle, but definitly a bit.
i kind of realised that im not the complete bum i sometimes think i am. just because i am not at uni with my head in a book, and just because i got CCE in my a levels and just because i work in a shitty shop in merry hill right now, its not the fucking end of the world.
i HAVE a job, i am paying my way, i have a car, and all being well i will pass my driving test next month. i have a gorgeous boyfriend who i have been with for nearly 2 and a half years.
i dont know everyone around here like this certain person, and to be fair i don't think i would want to. i dont feel like i waste my days away. and i certainly dont have the same habits which i am fucking glad of. its like a dependancy, and i could never be like that.
it kind of makes me laugh.
i used to have so much respect for this person and it kind of makes me a little bit sad. but we all choose our own paths and its not like i hold any responsibility in terms of real friendship anymore.
i feel quite content at the moment. mom and dad are going away in about 10 minutes in the caravan with some friends. i have work at 6 and dont have to go again till monday.
i kind of realised that im not the complete bum i sometimes think i am. just because i am not at uni with my head in a book, and just because i got CCE in my a levels and just because i work in a shitty shop in merry hill right now, its not the fucking end of the world.
i HAVE a job, i am paying my way, i have a car, and all being well i will pass my driving test next month. i have a gorgeous boyfriend who i have been with for nearly 2 and a half years.
i dont know everyone around here like this certain person, and to be fair i don't think i would want to. i dont feel like i waste my days away. and i certainly dont have the same habits which i am fucking glad of. its like a dependancy, and i could never be like that.
it kind of makes me laugh.
i used to have so much respect for this person and it kind of makes me a little bit sad. but we all choose our own paths and its not like i hold any responsibility in terms of real friendship anymore.
i feel quite content at the moment. mom and dad are going away in about 10 minutes in the caravan with some friends. i have work at 6 and dont have to go again till monday.