Feb 15, 2007 16:44
As I sit here and begin whatever it is i'm going to write, I realize that the only link between you and you audience is interpretation. Do I have any control of what someone thinks of me, do I have any control over the reading of my intentions, my remarks, my gestures?
I analyze, I judge, I try to decipher what people are thinking. This is my life. I want get into something new, but it's hard to get away from what you've been used to for so long.
I don't necessarily feel like i'm progressing. I feel like every semester I somehow manage to make an A or a B in a given class, but i'm not really any more knowledgable, or talented than before.
I have an ethics test in about an hour. I hate that class. I understand why the teacher is passionate about the subject, I just don't understand why he has to make the class seem so impossibly hard. I get it. You love ethics. I'm just taking the course because I have to. While I want to do well, I don't want to have to break my back just to make a B in your lower level course.
I'm scared. As long as I get a C I guess. That's a good attitude, eh?