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old habits die hard, eh? and it's funny the tiniest thing can set them off.... or practically nothing at all. even when you think you're comfortable, they come back to haunt you. and it's always the emotional habits i have problems with. smoking? that was no problem... of course maybe in my case it was never a habit. i never drank enough for that to become a habit. and that other vice..... it was never easy, in fact it was hell, but once i was done, i was done. i knew when to get myself the hell out before it destroyed everything that i held dear. but...... those are merely physical fulfillments, disillusionment in a substance. maybe they're not so different from more current habits that i'm trying to kick, but somehow there's an attachment i can't let go of....
maybe i'm just selfish.
maybe i'm just selfish.