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Lincoln just arrived back in town and it was good to see him. I didn't really want to leave and i know we could have talked all night, but it had to happen, i had to leave. He's gettin out of here in a couple days and this is just how road warriors work. WE RAGE. and flow where the wind does blow.
So i've been trying to reprioritize my life. I'm sick of this stupid shit, people getting me down because they feel like shit. I can see his lip twitch everytime he talks to me. And im not going to feel bad for you because im having fun. FUCK THAt.
Lincoln is a gem. I missed him...he's a real brother and i miss that kid. My heart yearns for something real...i feel like i've been fucking around too much and just stuck in stupid circles of nothingwads. Not really in touch with their emotions of what they want out of life. Stuck in the day to day bullshit, maya, maddness of trying, struggling, wanting something to release the bullshit and doing drugs because you can see no other way.
I DONT WANT YOUR FUCKING DRUGS! the peace i am seeking comes from within and not from any pill or pipe to smoke. Sorry you cannot say the same. i wish we would all just stop and listen.
I'm definitely lonely and i can feel my heart shrinking up. I can feel it expanding and contracting everytime a guy looks at me perversely and everytime i can feel REAL LOVE. Respect. I guess i will always make mistakes and i need to learn from them. dont feel regret, just live through it, looking toward the future.
I've been fasting lately. i feel toxic sometimes even though people tell me i'm healthy and they can tell by my eyes.
I really do want to join this Buddhist community up north. i want to fly out of this (sh)city.
So i've been trying to reprioritize my life. I'm sick of this stupid shit, people getting me down because they feel like shit. I can see his lip twitch everytime he talks to me. And im not going to feel bad for you because im having fun. FUCK THAt.
Lincoln is a gem. I missed him...he's a real brother and i miss that kid. My heart yearns for something real...i feel like i've been fucking around too much and just stuck in stupid circles of nothingwads. Not really in touch with their emotions of what they want out of life. Stuck in the day to day bullshit, maya, maddness of trying, struggling, wanting something to release the bullshit and doing drugs because you can see no other way.
I DONT WANT YOUR FUCKING DRUGS! the peace i am seeking comes from within and not from any pill or pipe to smoke. Sorry you cannot say the same. i wish we would all just stop and listen.
I'm definitely lonely and i can feel my heart shrinking up. I can feel it expanding and contracting everytime a guy looks at me perversely and everytime i can feel REAL LOVE. Respect. I guess i will always make mistakes and i need to learn from them. dont feel regret, just live through it, looking toward the future.
I've been fasting lately. i feel toxic sometimes even though people tell me i'm healthy and they can tell by my eyes.
I really do want to join this Buddhist community up north. i want to fly out of this (sh)city.