i really dont know what to do

[theradkiddish]

so one good friend up here, has decided, i guess, that we're not going to be friends anymore.
Because i brought another friend to MY house and...we haven't talked since then.
She keeps avoiding it, i avoid it, but am open to talk, anytime.
We're in a class together and that is telling me, forcing me, to figure this out.
But i dont know what to do, other than talk.
To which, we haven't.
I feel she is being childish, in ways.
And i wonder, does she really want to end everything we've ever had as friends, because of this?
She's projecting the shit that's going on in her family, onto me, i feel.
Because her aunt, married a loser and had kids with him, and he died, and left them in the cold.
I think she thinks this will happen to me.
Though, I would never have kids with a loser...and i am fully able to care for myself.

I dont get it.
I dont get this.
I really hate how she's acting toward me, like we were never friends.
Somber and full of anger, i dont know.

I never want that.
I have been having a blast in Berkeley with my friends/my family, something i've always wanted. And she's pissed.
And i hate disharmony.

fuuuck this.