where have all the familier faces gone?
As much as I hate to admit it, I miss what I used to have.. and what I used to do, and who I used to hangout with.
It's funny sometimes, you know. I spent most of the last few hours looking at Journals and various posts of people/from people of my past, and I couldn't stop thinking about how much I actually Missed that part of my life. I swear I must have looked at nearly 100 photographs tonight. It's so crazy. I can't even start to tell you how I'm feeling. I can't even believe This is the first entry that I've posted public in over a year I think. But for some reason, I feel the need to just write and I don't even care who reads this anymore.
My new life is going alright. I'm making it... somedays barely making it though, others I feel so good and so happy and soo rich. it's impossible to think about how far I've come in just one year. year ago I was sitting in a class room hardly knowing what the hell I was doing in there. not even sure of anything. I was still scared a year ago, you know. I moved a good distance from home, farthur than most people I know, but somedays I feel like it wasn't far enough, and somedays I wish I never moved away at all. back to the classroom-I never thought I'd actually finish school. I'm a fucking college graduate. half of the people out there are rolling their eyes right now. I don't care. to me this was a big accomplishment. for those who've known me throughout the years know why I'm talking about this. I miss you guys. I really miss you guys. You're all mostly, still in Windsor. and I'm not. I hardly come there anymore, in the last year I've been back about 4-5 times. that's nto alot, especially when the longest time I stayed was about 5 days.
It's really tough going there and driving past your houses and the places we used to hangout at, the places we partied, the stores we shopped at, all of those things. I want to so badly just give you all a call. But from looking at those pictures you look as if you've never even known me. crazy I am.I just never really was social enough back then to really pout an impact on you guys. I bet that If i was to call you.. any one of you, tomorrow, that you'd probably just hang up the reciever on me and laugh. I just assume this, obviously. I feel so fucked up. even old songs make me think about you guys. theres a few people that I really wish I befriended more.
I even feel like calling up people that I never really liked or anything like that. only because life is short and I wanted to leave things on a good note. It's been such a crazy life for me. I regret nothing. I will go to sleep tonight thinking about all of you;myfriends. I don't even think half of you still have me on your LJ friends pages, but if you do, and if we ever had anything, even if it was as simple as a "hello" as we past each other, just leave me a message... I really miss each and every one of you that's come into and unfortunaly out of my life. I'd love to get in touch with you, so we can share the past few years together, only in words though...
This year will tell me how things will be.. i don't know why, but I have a weird feeling. I've moved in with craig, and we've been living together for a little short fo a year now. We have a loft in the heart of downtown toronto, with a fantastic view of the city and lake. it's pretty much a dream come true. I'm a professional Makeup artist, and soon I will be enrolling myself into prosthetics and animatronics. Craig is a Geomatics Engineer, and he's very successful. We're both proud of each other. I feel like I've accompplished alot in the past year, even without you guys here, even though I know things would have been much more of a blast if I has stayed in touch. It's no one fault.
It's funny sometimes, you know. I spent most of the last few hours looking at Journals and various posts of people/from people of my past, and I couldn't stop thinking about how much I actually Missed that part of my life. I swear I must have looked at nearly 100 photographs tonight. It's so crazy. I can't even start to tell you how I'm feeling. I can't even believe This is the first entry that I've posted public in over a year I think. But for some reason, I feel the need to just write and I don't even care who reads this anymore.
My new life is going alright. I'm making it... somedays barely making it though, others I feel so good and so happy and soo rich. it's impossible to think about how far I've come in just one year. year ago I was sitting in a class room hardly knowing what the hell I was doing in there. not even sure of anything. I was still scared a year ago, you know. I moved a good distance from home, farthur than most people I know, but somedays I feel like it wasn't far enough, and somedays I wish I never moved away at all. back to the classroom-I never thought I'd actually finish school. I'm a fucking college graduate. half of the people out there are rolling their eyes right now. I don't care. to me this was a big accomplishment. for those who've known me throughout the years know why I'm talking about this. I miss you guys. I really miss you guys. You're all mostly, still in Windsor. and I'm not. I hardly come there anymore, in the last year I've been back about 4-5 times. that's nto alot, especially when the longest time I stayed was about 5 days.
It's really tough going there and driving past your houses and the places we used to hangout at, the places we partied, the stores we shopped at, all of those things. I want to so badly just give you all a call. But from looking at those pictures you look as if you've never even known me. crazy I am.I just never really was social enough back then to really pout an impact on you guys. I bet that If i was to call you.. any one of you, tomorrow, that you'd probably just hang up the reciever on me and laugh. I just assume this, obviously. I feel so fucked up. even old songs make me think about you guys. theres a few people that I really wish I befriended more.
I even feel like calling up people that I never really liked or anything like that. only because life is short and I wanted to leave things on a good note. It's been such a crazy life for me. I regret nothing. I will go to sleep tonight thinking about all of you;myfriends. I don't even think half of you still have me on your LJ friends pages, but if you do, and if we ever had anything, even if it was as simple as a "hello" as we past each other, just leave me a message... I really miss each and every one of you that's come into and unfortunaly out of my life. I'd love to get in touch with you, so we can share the past few years together, only in words though...
This year will tell me how things will be.. i don't know why, but I have a weird feeling. I've moved in with craig, and we've been living together for a little short fo a year now. We have a loft in the heart of downtown toronto, with a fantastic view of the city and lake. it's pretty much a dream come true. I'm a professional Makeup artist, and soon I will be enrolling myself into prosthetics and animatronics. Craig is a Geomatics Engineer, and he's very successful. We're both proud of each other. I feel like I've accompplished alot in the past year, even without you guys here, even though I know things would have been much more of a blast if I has stayed in touch. It's no one fault.