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I'm really confused right now! I don't know maybe I am truely more nieve then I thought! Right now the only thing that can explain anything close to what I an feeling is a poem from my favorite movie!
10 Things I Hate About You! With a couple of changes!
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive your car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb shoes
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way your always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when your not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I dont hate you,
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all!!!
I don't know I hate feeling this confused over a guy! I makes me want to be around him so much more but run away and cry more then anything! Ihave been like crying for like the last hafl hour. I'm not really a person who crys for long periosd of time, but I just can't stop! Some friends say I should stop talking to him and others say if I do it could ruin anything that could happen a week to two weeks from now, howver long it takes him to make up his mind! I don't know, I don't want to rush anything I just want to make myself stop thinking of the whole thing for awhile or at least so i can have one night of whole sleep with out the ever so repeating dreams! I don't know I really need to hang out iwht my real family( Susan, Dan, Kim, and ever one else that you all know who you are)!
I guess the other reason I'm all down is becasue I say good by to the only person that ever made the biggest diffrence in my life in two days! Tj is is going off to college and he's going to do great there and go out into the world and do great things for it and its peoeple! (Good Luck Bro) But yeah so Wensday night will be hard! But I'll make it though! Laters