regardless, it's in the past
we promised to wed
yet i seemed better in bed
when there wasn't a ring on your finger
maybe you'd have been content
if i had an accent
or was a lead singer
what you once wore with pride
you became compelled to hide
when you sought out another guy
you used to be supportive
till your views got distorted
and anger suffused all your thoughts
i'm not saying i was perfect
but i was willing to work at it
but your intimacy
changed to despondency
you think life will be great
when you graduate
and get out of state
then you will truly be free
but your prison wasn't me
its not work or school or family
it's what you've built mentally
you prefer your fantasies
to hard realities
and i could be bitter
but i choose to be better
i just wish you could see
and be all you were meant to be
i pray one day you will be complete
that you find your way the right way
even though it won't be to back to me
i hope you don't wake up one day to regret who you've become
i know now i was just a casualty of your war inside
i guess compared to other outcomes i'm really not bad off just being lonesome
still, i'd like you to know
that my love for you is still intact
regardless of lost trust and some respect
when you became derelict
and i found out you sought the thrill of another
and you found yourselves under the covers
when i found my worst nightmares in life all came true at once
it wasn't easy to take in impotence
you said that i should hate you, that you made the decision to do that
still i'm glad i know now because it gave me a choice to make
and i'll continually choose love even though your love and affections for me aren't at stake
like the theme from interstate 60: there IS another way
and i'll live the rest of my life without hate
i'm not ashamed of myself any longer
even though i haven't found someone i think this is me moving on
i'm glad for the chance to become more focused and stronger
moving on isn't finding a replacement anyhow
i'm ok with myself being single now
i'm looking forward to the future while.working on enjoying the present
yeah, it's actually not so difficult to be content
even if you have to practice at it
so goodbye from the forefront of my heart
i choose to miss the woman you were not what it seemed like you became
wherever and whoever you are now i choose to still love you for who you are
but not in the same way i did. not like you, but i've changed too