STOP.... SLOW DOWN...... WAIT....... FUCK YOU!!! WELCOME TO STANDSTILL
Yes life has given me a nice little standstill so to speak. I feel like I am just waiting for something to hit me and I will just pick up again. It just sucks waiting for whatever to happen to happen, I feel kind of useless with no job and all. I am going to get pretty desperate if starbucks doesn't follow through with what they have promised me. Time will only tell that one now.
In other news, I think I might try to pursue photography again, I have been re-inspired to get back into it and why shouldn't I? I will say that I do a very good job in it, I might even try to get a job with a photographer in town.... like an internship of some sort. Of course I say this now but doesn't mean I am actually going to do anything anytime soon. Just not the way I am which is not really all that good.
Sam is sick, I had nothing to do with it. I am just waiting for her to pass that shit on to me. Might has well I say, I am not doing much anyways. It would benefit me more to get sick early this winter season then late. All this talk about college stuff with her has really got me on edge, well not really on edge as most people know it since nothing ever worries or stresses me. She is thinking of moving away for college without going too far that I couldn't visit somehow. I am so devoted to her, I am willing to move where ever she goes, I just hope I can afford it in the end. I am just glad that I have almost an entire year before I have to worry about that. But for some reason it kind of looms over me like a little shadow in my mind, it pops its little head out occasionally and before I know it I am think of what I would do if I couldn't go with her, and if we were still has much in love in a year from now, and eventually it goes to crazy thoughts of me proposing to her in an effort to not lose her. I am officially insane. I know it, and that is the first step to recovery, hahahaha hehehehehe. God help me....
In other news, I think I might try to pursue photography again, I have been re-inspired to get back into it and why shouldn't I? I will say that I do a very good job in it, I might even try to get a job with a photographer in town.... like an internship of some sort. Of course I say this now but doesn't mean I am actually going to do anything anytime soon. Just not the way I am which is not really all that good.
Sam is sick, I had nothing to do with it. I am just waiting for her to pass that shit on to me. Might has well I say, I am not doing much anyways. It would benefit me more to get sick early this winter season then late. All this talk about college stuff with her has really got me on edge, well not really on edge as most people know it since nothing ever worries or stresses me. She is thinking of moving away for college without going too far that I couldn't visit somehow. I am so devoted to her, I am willing to move where ever she goes, I just hope I can afford it in the end. I am just glad that I have almost an entire year before I have to worry about that. But for some reason it kind of looms over me like a little shadow in my mind, it pops its little head out occasionally and before I know it I am think of what I would do if I couldn't go with her, and if we were still has much in love in a year from now, and eventually it goes to crazy thoughts of me proposing to her in an effort to not lose her. I am officially insane. I know it, and that is the first step to recovery, hahahaha hehehehehe. God help me....