what... who... when.... why.... with who.... why.... o god.... what does that mean?
I love fucking paranoia... isn't it just fucking fun. The endless thought of delusion and worry... ironically I am not paranoid for the things I should be but about petty shit... or is it. Who the fuck knows?
Ok.... I should try to explain myself... or shouldn't I... yes.. I should, this is what I think is up with my paranoia: I am in a relationship where I actually really like this girl, and I mean really like her, even with all her... well... interesting qualities. The big but is that I think she already lost interest in me... I could yet just be fucking paranoid but I could be right... now with my fucking luck I would be right. It would only make sense since I actually like her that she would either loss interest or something. That is what happens all the time anyways... all I know is that I have no intentions in getting in any other relationship after this one, I am just flat out done but I am hoping I won't have to worry about a relationship after this one b/c I will be in this one for... who knows how long, I am just hoping for longer then all my other relationships.
Ok.... I should try to explain myself... or shouldn't I... yes.. I should, this is what I think is up with my paranoia: I am in a relationship where I actually really like this girl, and I mean really like her, even with all her... well... interesting qualities. The big but is that I think she already lost interest in me... I could yet just be fucking paranoid but I could be right... now with my fucking luck I would be right. It would only make sense since I actually like her that she would either loss interest or something. That is what happens all the time anyways... all I know is that I have no intentions in getting in any other relationship after this one, I am just flat out done but I am hoping I won't have to worry about a relationship after this one b/c I will be in this one for... who knows how long, I am just hoping for longer then all my other relationships.